Christmas Folks!

Hey I'm back from getting around for Christmas!

Merry Christmas

I've got 3 gift exchange in total
And I got a iPhone case from my Secret Santa :D

Remember I said I'm gonna post my video about all my activities?
Here it is!

I went to Genting and it was really stunning there
The decorations are really wonderful

Also,we get a free stay at Seri Pacific Hotel during Christmas Eve to Monday
We kept on playing with the hotel's feature
Don't mind my friends in hotel,they are really crazy :D

Count down in KL was really crazy,but scary as well
I mean,if you wanna spray,can you at least pick someone you think they'd like to play

Seriously,we witnessed fighting during the count down
I saw a pile of blood stain when we wait for 12.00 am to arrive

Overall it's not bad,especially when we started chatting about how we feel about each other

There maybe a few gathering for us in the future,
but yes,I'll remember you guys

And guys,my american dream was approved by both my parents now
It's one of my Christmas Gift :)

One of my tough decision now is that should I join LEO again
I really enjoy talking to people and helping out

I certainly love joining events

But that'll be decided for next year

So folks,Merry Christmas!!!

Life after SPM #FTW

okay so some of my facebook friends asked me where have I been
Some of them said I didn't upload the photos I promised :P

The truth is,I don't have time to update anything but upload mobile photos

So far life after SPM is really enjoying!
here's my events from the past weeks ;)

The first thing to do is go to Chatime!

Our HBG members weren't all in the photos,we chat too much XD
But it's really happy that we can gather again once more before we part ways
Hope nothing change our friendship ;)

I went to see Twilight Breaking Dawn with Kelsey and Nicole
I'm not much fan of a vampire because it's really old
and to sum up the movie wasn't my type,but it's perfect for those who like romance :)
Then we went to BBQ PLAZA

the other Friday I went badminton with my good old friends Wendy Mika and Chee Ching

our hands when we cam whore on the roof of Jusco
Then we watched Petaling Street Worrior

It's quite good actually,but it bored me in the beginning
maybe I'm not a good fan of Asian Movie :S

So I attended St Mary Prom night after that
My couple that night was Shirley,I haven't saw her in months and gosh she was wearing a dress!

Shirley The Crazy Girl

But you look beautiful anyway XD
overall the night was really happy(but hot) and I kinda felt like being in a pub
This is not a negative comment kay~I really like the lame jokes and all that,thanks for the great night! :D

After that I registered for undang
and guess what,I met my KB friends and my classmates
what a fateful encounter XD
So we decide to have dinner together after hearing undang~

meet my KB kia-Mickey G :D

The most fun we had was in the theater,watching THE MUPPET

The songs are really nice,one of my favorite was Man or Muppet,go find it on Youtube!
it makes a nice movie actually but I watched the same story line on Disney many times already

And guys,meet my doggy-Lucky

Lucky is a mixed breed,the doctor said he has German Shepherd ears,golden retriever fur etc.
Lucky is really energetic and smart
He learned how to sit and stay when he was only 3 months old XD
The most surprising thing was,when I asked him to do a high 5,he jumped up and high 5 me!

what important is he can sit still and smile at me when I want to take his photos :D
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What do girls do after SPM? Most answer was 'I can dye my hair now!!!'

I went to Time Square because I know the hair dresser,Lisa
This is my colour-brown+red

this is how it look indoor

and when sun shine on it :D

A useful reminder for all who want to dye your hair,be sure to do treatment a day BEFORE you dye it
If you want to DIY,I recommend Liese,but it fades off fast :S
but hey,it's only RM30+,what do you expect?

Great News! I passed my undang XD
I met Tham and Boon Hua today and God we waited for 3 hours until we can take the god damn test
I felt sorry for Wendy and Mika because they came at 9.30 am and their names weren't even mentioned once until 12.50!

Sooooo to wrap up things I'm quite busy for this month and almost fully booked every week :S

But I'm always checking my FB messages and I'm really really sorry if I didn't approve you
There's many hackers lately so be careful,girls!

Also,I'll post my video about all these after Christmas so do check out if you have time ;)

Love y'all,Happy Holiday Season!

Graduated today!

with my monitor,LCL

Guys I graduate!!!!

五年了,我终于毕业了!!!

前一晚翻来翻去,睡不下去
想着要离开了,我应该不会哭吧

early in the morning,6.50

抱着这样的想法
星期五早上5.45就起床了
一大早的看到朋友们排队领编号
然后开始和每一个认识的朋友拍照

仪式开始一段时间后,看到爸妈们*我家庭复杂*
带着一束花!!!
真的让我很高兴 x)

every picture is really precious

毕业典礼过后
和班上同学留了下来拍照
一开始真的还觉得很开心
到开始唱起歌时,
和信荣相拥时他的哭声让我无法控制眼泪

然后一起唱歌的同学
一个接一个地哭了起来
Mika哭得最凄凉了
眼红鼻红,手帕都要湿完了

hand in hand,we stand and sing :')

与12班的同学牵手唱起'祝福'和'朋友'的温馨
哪一天才能再感受到?
途中芷琦也偷偷地哭了
明明就在前一天说过不哭的

after this I cried,so hard

还有就是和Tham难忘的合照
这几个月错过了多少拍照和相处的机会
我真的数不了
他一说话就让我泪流满脸
叫我别哭,这样更容易哭啊
竟然还要拍我那么丑的脸 TT

和大家一起哭着拥抱在一团
我真的很不舍

如果我们的经历是一场电影
我希望永远没有剧终的出现

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I cried a lot at the end...and I wanted to wrap up things to all my dearest friends

Tham
These days without talking to you were hard
How can I leave without saying goodbye
to a friend who had send me cards,celebrate my birthday,inviting me over for every year
Instead of regretting
Finally I can have our photos together again
but I'm crying so hard so please don't mind my ugly face
I'm sorry that I didn't tell you this earlier
I couldn't gather enough courage

I just want to tell you,I really treasure you as my best friend

Kenny Tan
You're here because I forced you to xD
Throughout the year we are not as close as others
But still we managed to be friends ;)
I hope everything gets better for you in the future
Best wishes to you

Ah Suz
虽然认识你的时间不长
可是仍然喜欢你
有时候说话很激动
帮我检查了三次国民服务的名单
有时候自己emo起来
希望你以后的路会很阳光
开心地走下去 ;)

至12的朋友
我们当邻居两年咯
你们总是很吵,跟老师关系很好
我们和你们却相反
静静的,一直在温习功课

有时候我们羡慕你们能那么无拘无束
有时候你们却羡慕我们的成绩

毕业当天和你们手牵手唱歌真的很开心
也很没形象地不断哭起来

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终于都毕业了...心情真的好复杂

图中的那束花终究还是分开了

就像我们一样
虽然在一起是很美丽
到最后还是必须分离

随着各自的主人
继续成长,或是枯萎

选择自己的阳光
继续灿烂

谢谢你们
Wendy,Mika,Summer,Kelsey,YY,LCL,XR,YPY,Mario,Steven,Sk,Ah Suz,Daphne,TWZ,oneway,Kenny,Ler Pin,Mimi,WY Chia,all of 13 and all the friends I knew in my Secondary school life

Thank you all for these wonderful years :')

Graduation is so wonderful,because of you guys

Graduation:The love story/毕业章:他与她

Most of us start finding the feeling 'love' in high school
In this post you might find one of the things that I don't usually share,enjoy the scoop ;)

中学时期的我们都会发现'爱'这种感觉
甚至明白爸妈的感觉
在这次的文章里,你会知道一些我还没什么分享过的经历 x)

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How does it feel?
Trying to see that special person in every corner you go
A single word,a smile,a text message
It's enough for you to be happy

其实你们都是怎样对待感情的?
试着走遍每个他会出现的角落
一句话,一个笑,一封简单的短信
已经足够成为开心的理由

Me,the blogger
saw those sweetest thing going on between friends
or slipping away
Being in love during this age is a dreadful,but romantic idea

我本身也可以说是个过来人
看见它给身边的朋友甜蜜的生活
离开,消逝
或许在这时期恋爱,是个很浪漫但可怕的念头

I met him under an old house
with only woods for roof and crowded as market
Not romantic in any occasion

与他在一间老屋子遇见
在木屋顶和人潮拥挤的房间里
一点也不浪漫

Neither of us thought of this feeling
But he could say 'are you okay?'
and makes me feel happy for it
That's when I first learn 'liking someone'

或许年幼,还是无知
我们都没想过这感觉
但能肯定的是
他每次问'你还好吗?'
就能让我嘴角上扬
第一次感觉'我喜欢他这么问' :)

Sometimes I can see him at the side of my class
He'd say 'Just passing by and chatting with his friends'
But we both knew it's not
Because there's about 2 paths in between our classrooms
How could you be passing by?

那段时期,我可以在隔壁的教室看见他
他会说'我刚好经过,跟朋友聊下'
然后挂上他的傻笑
我们都知道这不是事实
他和我的教室,隔着2条走廊
你怎么'经过'呢?

Isn't it sweet?
Having someone to visit after every recess
Just to see you talking and smiling
Too sweet for me to handle

每天下课后,都有个人来嘘寒问暖
要不就是站在你的教室外
看你笑,听你说话
已经超越了甜蜜吧

He tried hinting me
I tried not to destroy our friendship
I couldn't make sure if everything work out
But this is far too long ago
Neither of us clearly stated our feelings
So it ended after one and a half year

他试着给暗示我
我却试着不破坏我们的友谊
因为存在着太多的不肯定,承受不了失去朋友的感觉
但这都是从前了
我们都没真的说出口

一年半后,我们都当没了这回事

We remained as friends
But not as close as before
The feelings subsided since I went to Form 3
It's not pain at all,but it makes me wonder
What if? But it's not gonna happen ;)

我们还是朋友
但没了之前的亲切感
自从升上中三后就没有了这种感觉
虽说没有疼痛的感觉
却让我想像那不可能发生的事情

中学就是如此吧,无法真的肯定,却又想去尝试 :)

*继续comment list

YPY Lucky,Pei Yee
由于她投诉没看到她出现在上一次的list
所以这次你是第一个 XD
我知道你是个喜欢韩国明星的女孩
静静的,发起脾气来很可怕的
和你走路回家,陪你庆祝生日
可能没有机会了
但我会记得的 x)

CC,Daphne Wong
或许很少说话的关系
所以我真的没什么了解你
但我知道你是个很爱家庭的人
和我一样喜欢周杰伦! XD
很聪明,也很努力
愿你幸福 ;)

Joel Wong
有才的人,二号
很有艺术天分的他
经常是个迁就其他人的中立先生
不过有时候,你还是必须说出你的想法
你真的要努力一点了 x)

Ah Deep,Steven
比我还女人的steven,
会随身带着镜子,面纸
唱歌真的蛮好听
音乐方面也有很不错的作词
希望你能开心幸福 *你知道我在说什么啦* XD

JN,Jennie Too
有时候很38的同学
不过很少接触她所以也没什么了解
抱歉啦,有时候你要传东西我都没听到你在叫我
同上的祝福,你要幸福 x)

Chee Ching,Sharon
应该很少人知道你的洋名吧~
在班上就是不断喊累,说要睡觉
但是考试时会打起精神,读到半夜
每天下课就是和她,还有ky一起去食堂
虽然远距离很艰难,但她是很幸福的 xD

Oneway,Wan Wei
班上应该没有人不知道她很爱吃吧~
从小学起就很聪明
现在也比较成熟了~
希望你能达到你的梦想 ;D

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这个post最后的人比较特别,是我们的级任老师
Mrs Tey Bee Hong
从Mario的post里大家都知道
老师要结婚了
最后一年教我们了
不管你给了我们多少张练习纸,我们都不会讨厌你的啦 XD

我们没有办法出席你的婚礼,更不能像大人一样买大礼祝福你

但我们的心意是一样的
新婚快乐!

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由于这是关于中学的感情事

相信大多数人都会经历吧
酸酸甜甜,令人回味

其实中学男生都没有戏里面那么现实
比起来...现实的好像是我们女生? XD

你不需要有完美的身段
还是漂亮的脸庞
很老土的,男生确实只要你的心

可是,物质似乎胜过这一切

我们都回不去从前
不是有颗棒棒糖就能快乐
不能挽着手就说一起到老

甜甜的感觉,会不会就这样成为'理所当然'的感觉
建立在物质上的感情,又有什么感情可言?

毕业倒数2天

Graduation:The class you loved/毕业章:你爱着的班

Due to some reasons,every post about graduation is going to have 2 languages
for my friends,everyone of them

We spent most of our time with our friends,especially classmates
Every year a different class
I stayed with 13 for 3 years,12 for 2 years
and I love 5A13,even when we are all flawed humans

在中学的时候，我们与同班同学相处的时间最多
每一年，我们都会换一班
期间我换了两个班:12和13
不管13的人有多少错误,我还是很喜欢

We have 2 transfer students
WY and Kok Heng
Both smart,and are rather special in their own way
Wy is the smart girl,having high score in every exam
Kok Heng likes computer games,and owed me a lot of cookies!
Anyway,sincerely I hope you guys enjoyed being in our class

我们有两个转校生
Wy和国兴
他们很特别，也很有个性
WY是考试的长胜军，也是个有话直说的人
国兴却是整天玩游戏到天亮的人，睡不醒就不来学校了
来的时间多短多长，希望你们都待得开心

After every exam we'll hang out or go for a movie
Then we'll go for steamboat,then karaoke
Most of the time we're shouting every lyrics
Having our casual time,we don't care if we have image
In front of your friends,you're just a plain paper

每次考试过后我们都会去看电影，吃火锅，然后去唱歌
每一次我们都在 '喊' 歌
基本上，我们没在顾我们的形象
因为在朋友面前，你就是一张白纸

I always wanted to grow up,like every teenagers
But every time I giggle,joke,laugh with them
I might have thought I don't really want to grow up so soon
I just like being with them

小时候会不断想要长大
到大学去体验生活
但每次与他们为了小事情欢笑,38,说笑
想长大的念头就慢慢淡化了
我很喜欢与他们呆在一起的感觉


*这是朋友的comment list

Wendy Low
即使没有同班很久,我们还是好朋友 x)
因为我和你的距离有点远
不能第一时间知道你发生了什么事
所以有时你感到不开心还是什么,请一定要告诉我
照约定,我们明年一起去找大学
我不会早你一步还是什么

Mika Hs
其实不化妆也Ok啦
不要整天赖在床上啦
我和你最好的一次就是下雨天也去买蛋糕
然后一起吵醒睡到像猪的雯 XD

YST,Summer Yong
喜欢画大便的怪保姆
同班了十年,可是还是不习惯她无厘头的举动
她的终身目标是减肥~ XD
你不要一直吃啦

YY,Yeeying Grace
group里面最38的人
笑点很低,笑起来就不会停了~
整天强调自己很有image
其实早就没啦~

XR,Xin Rong
暴喜暴忧,看到就压力
考完试后是很high的
他就坐在我前面,整天酸ZQ
希望你的SPM能拿满A啦 x))


ZQ,Kelsey Lim
说话很直,给自己压力最多的笨蛋
看到她自卑的时候,又不知道要怎样办好
坐你隔壁真的有点不简单~
快点变美女啦


LCL
很串的班长
可是又不能不佩服他,因为他成绩真的很好 -.-
驾车很快,有时候跟人讲话好像要打架那样
不要看他块头那么大,他是很心软的~
不知道毕业后还能不能见到
我们SPM加油啦 XD

Mario Chooi
牙齿很白的Mario!
怎样刷也没有那样白的牙齿 TT
怨念啊~
摄影很不错,唯一缺点就是
她整天骗我们说会穿裙!!! TT
我不管你,毕业过后你一定要穿!

Sk Wong
最厉害发梦就是他了啦
说的话整天冷场,老师讲了大半天他还没拿书出来 XD
可是令人费解的是,他的成绩很好,也很有才
才子一名啊~

暂时还想不到还有谁了
虽然'那些年'是爱情片

但用在我们身上,也很恰当 x))

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这后记真的有点伤感
年头时很开心地想'太好了,过了这年就能毕业了!'
可是现在...已经要到那一刻了
却矛盾的不想离开

在学生时期路上,我们都拼命地想长大,却在这途中给自己找了不想长大的理由

发现有些事情,不是我们能控制的
就算长大了,我们记忆中,仍然会有一起在海边跳跃的画面
一起给意见,一起给一个人惊喜,一起拍自己没有形象的照片

这就是我们青春最美好的地方,成长 :)

我爸是个老粗

我爸是个老粗
读到中三,中五

他说在那时已经很厉害

可以代数学老师的课

打篮球也比别人厉害

我爸不是什么上流社会
没有领带掐着,没有只说英文

我爸常说以前会和人吵架

就像电视剧里一样打架

我爸是个科技白痴
用个电话,看个电脑,好像会死

结果用了大家认为很贵的苹果

他不是有钱,只是为了方便

我爸是个创意大使
明明没可能的东西,他都能想办法

家里没灯笼也会立刻让milo罐变身

小学忘了做花布也可以在3小时内出现

我爸真的很土
他说的料理名称连我老师也不清楚

他说以前要不煮饭只会吃苦

现在煮得多好也没想过当个主厨

我爸很高期望
希望我当个什么高才生

却说别读得这么辛苦

我没熄灯他都不会去睡

我和我爸都很嘴硬
从不说出心里想要的

送礼物也要隔个门才行

没有妈妈传话不行

我爸是老粗

可是知道的,都比一些少爷小姐多

包括我已经要毕业这回事

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从小就不是在家里长大的我
开始在家住的那几年都不会嚷着爸爸妈妈

妈妈比较善解人意,爸爸却比别人严很多
而且对以前就很听话的我期望很高

活到中三才知道和大伙搭地铁是什么滋味
才知道德士真的很贵

中四时开始不想走大家安排给我的路
选择了从六年级就很喜欢的心理医生当梦想

反对,顶嘴,不理解
一直在发生

思想保守的家族,都会觉得心理学是研究疯人的

到中五这一年,爸爸才终于接受我的梦想

爸说我大了,就算想管也管不住了
真想不到,到拥有自由的那一刻

我才会好好咀嚼爸爸平日的细心

才不去计较爸爸平常的言行
爸爸,你真的很老粗

也比任何人都还要不会表达

仔细想想,我也不会呀!

久违的华文

Trial aftermath

Alright then be patient to this post because I'm trying something new
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Trial is finally over and I'm not in the mood

SPM is almost here it doesn't feel good

I'm still wondering how'd life be after SPM

After these 3 weeks I'm realizing something

Yes graduation is not far away

I've got to choose my path and clear the road

I need to say 'cheerio' to my friends I've treasured most

Wendy said this is life and we should move on

In that case I will never let you go

As my best friend and my little dress up doll

After 3 months time I would never hear

Another word from Xin Rong saying exams are tough

Another complain from Kelsey saying teachers are harsh

Not anymore singing of pop song from the next desk

Maybe not even Mario saying she cut her hair

Sure there is facebook and we'll all be in contact

But that would never change the fact

We are going separate ways and won't be the same anymore

We have our own dreams to chase

Should I remember that we're not just a class

We went shopping in the Jusco of Melacca

We shared our feelings and there was embarrassing time

We took 2 row of seats in the cinema

I can't write all 'we' in this post

Because there are uncountable times we have fun together

Soon we will be apart and move on

I would say Trial made me realized there are more about life

Thanks to Raveena who I met in HELP's contest

Maybe you're reading this post and feeling so boring

Ya it's boring,it's what life is made of

All the tiny little things that we neglect and put aside

Are what we'll miss and kept in our life's story

I should stop writing and thanks for reading all these

No nothing's constant

No I'm not writing my name again and again

Skipping Steps

-Wake up,brush your teeth,wash your face,make bed,breakfast...

Just as normal as everyone else.

He likes wearing suspenders,

She wouldn't disagree,as everything that goes on him are so perfectly fine

He brings his dog out for a walk every evening,

when the sun is almost off duty.

She will always be there when the sun paints his hair brownish red

Enjoy the view with her favourite Earl Grey.

She believes his eyes are beautiful

Even though they are often block by his thick glasses.

She knows his voice is deep and always in a soothing tone

Even when the words weren't meant for her.

His shares the same hair colour with her

Notable sepia,shines under the sun.

She had only talked to him once

But she remembers it crystal clear,as though it just happened yesterday

Why don't you start talking to him then?

Every once in a while,someone'll ask

She would say that they weren't even friends in the first place.

Living in her own fantasy

Giving him the personality that she wants him to have

These are better,than having misconception about him

and gets disappoint in the end.

Her glasses only brought her so far

She doesn't fancy herself as the sociable,confident type

Looking is more than enough for her

Some night at the seaside,
She kept herself in her thoughts,noticing someone familiar

He isn't with his glasses today

She was right about those eyes

In the depth of those almond shaped eyes
There is a light blue sea that sparkles,as lively as their owner

She is looking at him,as usual
Wondering why is he out on this late hour

To her surprise,he spotted her

Um...I lost my glasses,have you saw it?

Shaking her head as hard as possible
She felt all the oxygen around were gone for a second

Wait,we talked before,right?

Though she nodded,but she never thought he'd remember.

Your glasses look exactly alike with mine!

She tries distancing herself from him
But he took her glasses off.

Somehow,you all knew what happened.

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Glasses helped with our visions
but it blocks something that matters even more than visions,feelings.

Here it stands as her own world,and somehow being the reasons she disbelief in things

For him,as a block but also a reason he gets near to her

Because glasses is what they both have,as a obstacle and helped them together

Most people believe in what they see,but not what they felt

Steps taken can be short,following the routine

Sometimes,you can actually skip steps ;)

Inspirations from WF

Look at the world differently

Starting of the End

It's like so fast that our holidays come to an end
*awww*

Somehow,starting of the big exams is the beginning of the ending in our high school life

And somehow,I've updated my bio page,try knowing me LOL
I mean,it's the end and a fresh season after it

Might as well as reflecting what you've did in this year and try changing it

Okay,for the second part of my 'What The Dang' Holidays

I went to the theaters,and most of you viewers don't know
It's The Glee 3D movie!

it's kinda lame how someone don't know what a global sensation is
but well,some of those people,they just don't get it

Then it might be no surprise that I went to badminton,once again,with my dear Wendy ;D

It's no doubt that we are very best friends,also I wish Mika the best

I might be writing in English all the time,so sorry
I wouldn't be able to write anything Chinese because,it kinda sound weird to me now :/

Still,I'm so surprised that we have Gleeks in the theater with us!
Overwhelming it is,to listen to Kevin's voice and hear someone else clapped for him

I'm studying for the finals,it matters so much
but in this holiday,I had no time

I mean,
where's the time machine when you need it?

Going to Midvalley,Karaoke,movies,Glee Project and Stuffs :/

That's a wrap thou

I'll just update real quick as I still have much to do

There's one more thing,I don't mind graduating now
I'd miss some of my friends but well,it's not that much anymore actually

This is just a natural process,like Kevin said thou, LOL

So,might not be updating so often because I'm obsessed with Tumblr and exams stuff

You guys should check it out,it's awesome there ;D

A reminder:studying is still a passion to live for *well,Imma nerd*

Nerd much?No,just geeking

Okay wait for my new name ;P

With much love 20.08.2011

I've always wished I could be special,

but then again,everyone does,

and everyone is.

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Sometimes I wished you guys can understand,what is friendship

I know a friendship can't hold on if one refuse to admit what's wrong

But to remind you guys,

both of you were very best friends

I never imagine how would it be if you two are not together

Yes,sometimes truth hurts more than you could imagine

But truth is a gift to a friendship that matters

Knowing how each other felt about your behavior is actually not bad at all

Like in everything we learn,understanding mistakes is a part of it

That's why you can improve your friendship

Please don't say it doesn't matter,because it does

I don't want to get involve

But as a friend,I hope each one of you know

Both of you are important to each other

It's our last year...

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A friendship needs nurture and nourish 

True friends and True love are among the most precious things that one could have

You can't neglect anyone of them

Because when you lost either one of it

you're gonna need the other one :)

With much love

Carrot

眼镜 04.08.2011

因为水蒸气,
我看不清

近视一直是我和你的联系

有时候
镜片中的世界很小,很狭隘

但你在的时候
我感觉它像放大镜,

没有运气的时候我也能看到那一丁点的美好

你说那眼镜让我看起来好聪明

我相信,

虽然别人都说我像书虫

可是你离去时

泪水模糊了眼睛

留下这一副眼镜

或许你知道

我不爱细心看东西

无时无刻,我都没离开过它

我看得很清,很清

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那眼镜真的让我看起来很像宅女

我一点也没介意过

因为我不想否定自己的曾经

它带着我和你超载的回忆

哪一天,你让我讨厌的东西都变得美好

筠霓.

阳光 28.7.2011

暖暖的,赶走一切坏心情的感觉

午后的阳光,就像他一样

*

那年的七月没有什么阳光,
心情也和天气一样

阴沉,没精神

如果拿起一本书,什么也不会进脑

他站在雨中,苦等4个小时

专注于书的我看不到

雨滴一点一点地把他的身影在雨中隐藏着

像在给他打马赛克一般

终于抬起头的我看到了他

他把伞递了过来

可惜天空不哭了

他和周围的空气一样清新

笑了笑

真的不需要热茶取暖

温暖,充满生命力

已经是你的特质

就像阳光一样

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有时候奢望太多,反而烧伤了手

我真的没有伤心还是什么

我只是遗憾,因为我忘了阳光的美好

如果能捉住阳光

Carrot105

Random 13.7.2011

Hey guys I'm sorry that this blog is kinda left behind,

So I would filled this posts with random thoughts of mine these few days

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FIRST of ALL

Guys HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HOLLOWS pt.2 is OUT!!!!!

make sure you buy a ticket to this most epic movie of the magical series!

to all HP fans,I'm sure it's sad to see that our childhood will be gone with it

but it would be better to realize that Harry don't only lives in books and movies,

he lives in our heart.

Every minute we remembered how we used to pretend that owls will send you letters,or pretended you can use a stick to cast magic,we are the magic itself.

A great thanks to J.K.ROWLING for writing such an epic & classic books of this century

#cutting line

Second of all,

I've been talking to this friend lately,and I really am sorry,if I hurt your feelings

You know who you are,as far as you know,

I would always be your friend

I felt kinda sad about my friends getting picked for NS,

I mean,I don't get the idea of patrolling a jungle at midnight,neither do my friend likes it

Best of luck anyway :)

#cutting line again

Something I would have told some of those who view my blog

but I never say it out loud

I don't hate anyone just because my friends hated them

Honestly,some people are so,forgive me, STUPID for thinking they are worthy of others' time

Don't go bragging how others are bad or bad just because you don't like them

I mean c'on! Are you that stupid to let others who listen to you think you're the one who's being the meanie?

Yes,to you,I think you might have gone a little too far with your selfish act

Others may not see the real you because they're your close friends,

but outsiders can see you crystal-clear

you Liar.

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Again I have to ask,

don't try to find any seats which were not reserve for you

I hope everything goes fine for you,

Randomness rocks

Carrot

中五 1.7.2011

如果中五生涯是乐谱
那是一首能感动任何人的曲子

即便有些人不明白

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有时候你会想起

那年你很讨厌的那个某某
现在居然是你的好朋友

那时候不喜欢说话的乖乖仔
现在是陪你谈天说地的风趣小子

那个你认为死板的女生
其实是个拥有疯狂梦想的人

那时候你认为文静的人
只不过是个一开口就不能停的人

那个不会笑的人
在拍照当天给了一个灿烂的笑容

那年只会做功课的男生
意外地很会开玩笑

那时候说不会谈恋爱的人
不知不觉已经有了伴侣

那个整天发脾气的人
却不喜欢计较有些人对她的不好

那年你发现偷偷哭泣的人
比你想象中坚强

有些虽然在背后抱怨谁的不好
其实大家都是三分钟热度

有时候你会看到他们在网上的 '有感而发'
然后自己想起 '原来我了解你不多'

有时候你忘了别人不是你的出气筒
到最后别人都原谅了你

然后,有那么一个朋友
不管隔多远,多少天
她都会陪着你,互相倾诉,分享未来的梦

5A13'11 :)

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第一次说毕业的时候,才十二岁

这是第二次了,再几个月,

或许不会再见面了
或许不能再说笑了
也许有天遇见,再也不是今年的我们了

我期待着,
ZQ变美女的样子
XR上大学的发型
JR毕业后的打扮
MARIO穿裙的样子
YY还是不变的38
还有很多...

我和Wendy以后一起上学会拍的照片

2011的上半年,没有白过

Graduation is not far away

-Carrot-

随笔 20.5.2011

我知道过了一段日子,不过真的没有什么时间上来更新

偶尔,只是偶尔
我回想起去年的20.5真的是我最喜欢的一天

5月20日

夹杂着我对一个人的感情

像迷宫一般,解不开,也没有去解

我相信,一段爱情小说,最完美的结局,就是没有结局

我不知道其他人会怎么想
但是我清楚,你会明白我想说的是什么

与其我拼命的想把这段记忆从脑海里删除,
还不如顺其自然,所以我变了

我确实变了,我说不出口,但本身感觉到

我不再为一点小事生气关心自己的人
我不再去在乎时间有多少

还有一点是,你会不相信吧
我活得,比以前忙

其实我真的明白以前你的难处,这对你会有点不可思议

我不介意,不介意没有时间

我很喜欢这种感觉,可能明知道距离远了心还是在一起
比一切还要幸福

不过解说这一切,都比不上我对你说 '我变了' 这般容易 ;)

至于上几个月我对你说的话
我不会收回,那很真实,从我心里说出来的

你回答与否,不是我的事
你要回复了,自然会复的

但是,那一天,不管哪一天
有难了,伤心了,只要我能帮忙了

我会尽量,尽量赶在你崩溃前到达

是的,'一定会帮你' 这种话我说不出

衷心的希望你的笑,是真的笑

愿你一切安好,健康

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后记

这个文章被存在档案里有超过20天了

其实我很犹豫到底需不需要写这篇东西

在意认识我的人怎么看

然后好友告诉我,发自内心的东西,不会不值得写出来
更何况,我的生活,何时轮到别人来管了

然后我把这个后记缓缓补上

*P.S
如果你真的有看

永远记得,是有这么一个人希望你开心

在你觉得伤心无助时,愿这祝福能给你带来至少一点的安慰


*我不是你的谁,但比任何人都愿意看到你开心

With luck,moving forward

-SunnySideMe

WTH?! Shallow!

Secondary school is a place for you to make great friends,
A place for you to study,

But you would wonder so much sometimes,either friends or studies

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So I chat with Kelsey about some weakness on person

Not everyone is perfect,ya you know that,moving on

About friends,I do wonder,and I like my class better,now & always.
There's someone I mention earlier,
Heck ya! A shallow person,wth are you?
You're really immature,just like your uncle & brother say so.

Sometimes I figure,Kelsey was right.
I'm sick of compromising,should have scold you in front of everyone,but I didn't
Ya,I'm a nice person,unlike you,denying others' hard work.

So far,I like my friends,well,not the one I already stop friending :)

Don't get me wrong,I love you guys ;D

Okay,about studies!
"You wanna get A+ right?Just copy la!"
Hell,so when we copy we got the ability to get A+?
WTH is that concept?

I don't deny copying notes somehow helps in studies,but not getting A+.
Sometimes you will find it stupid,
Yes,notes,points & some hard work is required

Nowadays,education is confusing.
Example:we have to have test every month,because American do so?
Awww,that's crap! American get summer & winter break,they get to rest,we don't.
During holidays,we need to prepare for the next exam already!

In addition,Americans usually can choose what course they's probably study in the future & the subjects they REALLY LIKE.

Still,there's successful people in our country,but mostly not here
You know what I mean.

Okay,I'm ranting randomly on people & education
Don't take it personally,just saying ;)

trollin'

Bell

Ahhh....Geez

Okay so I opened tumblr
http://nomnomnom-licious.tumblr.com/
feel free to take a look,because I'm updating tumblr regularly
but I will keep blogger updated too ;D

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It's been a while since I update my blog,well,a lot was going on!

Mae Yee & her family leave this morning,going back to England
I will miss you :)

Mid-year exam is coming soon,I can't ask for help from other school since they are having the exam at the same dates,Shirley knows that!
Stress stress stress!

I just had a Math's course today,and it was boring,as usual.
Kenny can't understand triangle,gosh I was picking up my little knife!
You should really study,Kenny,I hope you do fine in exams :D

Someone can't just grow up,being immature was the biggest thing I regret in my whole life
Hope that someone will figures,geez...kinda awkward,how old should a person be mature?
I mean,you're bloody 17!
 Somewhere in the pea brain of yours,lives wisdom.Try your best to access him

Mika is going to turn 17 officially soon!!!OMG May is such a busy month!
In case I forgot,I will wish you here first:
Happy Birthday!!! xD

Also I had my mom promising me to buy me a mac book,and she said I would do fine being out there,like I'm leaving! There's still 2 years!
Anyway I cherish you as you're such a great mom

Talking about friends,Kelsey & my classmates are the best I could have,or Wendy :D
Ya,I'm not judgemental,but having peple keep on saying rude words in front of you as your friend,kinda make us uncomfortable.
If you wanna use it,you're going to pay for it #just saying

Anyway,summing up so far,life's great!
Melacca class trip is coming after exam
I'll get my new wardrobe soon
I have new friends aka Shirley & others
My friends are all fine!

I love you guys! remember that ;D

Life's so great!

Ah Bell

I remember :)

那天骑着单车,
拿起电话,打起熟悉的字眼
回头,
原来没有忘记,只是想不起

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相当悠闲的一天,星期四 :D

最近洗了照片,蛮喜欢拿着照片的感觉
现在都上传在面子书,还是少了点什么,觉得一张张的照片比较有感觉吧 :)

我记得,你给我买巧克力,
然后傻傻的说,没伤心事不准吃.
我知道,你不想我伤心,即使有也能吃巧克力

我记得,你在半夜给我打电话
担心我有什么心事,没有人会聆听
我一直都很喜欢你,可能我没有说,但你才是我的好朋友

我记得,你喜欢上她
却整天对我抱怨她的不好,
其实,我不是什么很好的女朋友,但是我会当一个对你很好的朋友

我记得,那年你想拉我的手
却在开口前被我制止,
对不起没对你说,你却仍然对我这么好

我记得,那次你在我面前哭
我不了解,一点都不.
我只想陪你一起哭,原来我那么容易被你影响

我记得,我笨得想为你们付出一切时间,
如果那叫天真,我还是宁愿现实一点
值不值得的事情,不是由你来决定,是我的决定

就像我上次说的,照片能记录回忆
但如果有心,根本不需要照片,因为那个情景一直都在心里 :)

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我想感谢
半夜打电话给我的雯
当我是知心朋友的冰
和我一样爱化妆的MIKA
给我美好记忆的你们

下辈子,不要忘了来找我 :')

*世界末日那天,咱们一起死好不好? xD

When you smile,I smile too :)

Clairabell

This is a post.About craps on my mind

Life is never a ice-cream with all topping on
So you can stop eating those xD

*          *          *           *
okay,so I was a little bored on web I decided to update my blog AGAIN :D
Things changed,please don't ever consider I was a obedient or good student.

I'm always this way,
I don't enjoy meeting that keeps going on & on with the same old boring topic
If you were so worried about it,go solve it.

I don't like to see your face,please don't ever ask me why don't I look straight into you
You disgust me,that's the end of the discussion.

I don't quite like the idea of you calling my name,so what?
You have polluted my name,I hate that.

I don't think you can stop people from talking about you in internet,it's not case sensitive
You don't own the internet,there was never a rule that said we can't do so.

I like the fact that you have a tiny brain yet a big body shape,but I never liked you
You're just a clown in my school life,nothing you said could ever affect me.

I'm going to the damn camp,but guess what,I can bath in my home & eat actual food
I don't mind if I can't be closer with other people,I don't want to anyway.

I don't like you,don't try to sneak in to my best friend list,I had kick you out of it
You never care,why bother to care now? I don't give a damn about you.

I don't like to stand there like a puppet & so I have ADHD,I don't wanna cure it
I know you're boring & all that, don't force me to be like you,you're a DEAD FISH.

I don't mind looking at ugly things but you were too much!
Yes,I've always been like this,look at your 'dreamy' eyes,you can scare people at night.

What's with your mind? So you think you could control people? Ya Don't!
Well,unless you're holding a gun,but that would be impossible.

I know you were concern about me,but I DON'T need you to do that,
I don't care how many years,you WERE my friend,you leave me when I needed help,I don't mind,but don't expect I would ever help you,I won't care even if you want to suicide.

I don't mind if you say bad things about me,I can't ask everyone to like me,
You & your 'come on' all that,I hate it,yet I felt sorry for you as you were a low-educated creature,you made me felt happy about myself.

Let me be harsh on you,I wonder why you can stand looking into the mirror everyday you wake up? Your breathe stink like shit,you were not very nice of a person & you never will be.You have no real friends unless you beg them to be.I despise you.I've never try to talk about your private stuff but you make me did so,OPPS ?

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I've done with my complaining :D

Now,I would like to thanks some people for hearing me out

Thanks ZQ for listening to me,saying all this crap
Thanks to Kent who comfort me about this
Thanks to my friends in 12 who makes me feel better of myself :D

I'm not vulnerable

carrot

学园篇之巡察员难当 .__.

本小姐当巡察员要5年了,

在读的你们应该知道,巡察员都被认为是学校的'狗'..
(狗不狗的,我不知道,我只知道,我真不想当!)

去年换了个老师以后,根本没什么改善 (个人意见,不要吵多多)

不管当多久,你多谅解学生和老师,你还是会被骂 -.-
不过还是有人乐在其中 (我真搞不懂)

即使有过多开心的回忆,我也是会不喜欢的工作
听好,真的是工作哦,有事没事都要骂一下学生,不然你就是没尽责
老师叫你做就要做,做不好,老师不骂senior骂
*我说的是我看过的,不要讲没有咯,然后讲一些攻击性话语,只让你显得没文化 :)

在这么多的巡察员里面,也会有很多不同的人
就好像你读Biology,一种动物会有成千上万个Species -.-

最常见就是
是又骂,不是又骂的类型
笑一下,"apa yang melucukan?!"
嘴巴痒用舌头舔一下,"Awak buat apa,semua orang serious sini!"
然后很喜欢点人家做东西,
自己错了当没事发生,别人做错骂臭头的那种 -.-

还有博上位的类型
senior在就比考试读书还努力,senior不在就偷懒
很喜欢有事没事问senior这个那个,
一有东西做就抢来做的,
得空就在那里讲要怎样怎样做
说一下自己做过什么厉害的 -.-

我本身属于置身事外型 :D
要duty的时候我会duty,不要跟我过来"junior,你xxxxxx"
duty时间以外,我是不属于巡察员的,
我的自由时间更不会因为你想骂人了就会牺牲
不管什么活动,没必要就不会去,一定要的话我就会去
不过大多数开会他们一直在耶稣 -.-

有一种,拿着鸡毛当令箭的
就那么巧,遇到他,然后跟他讲要管好xxx
过后他会很莫名其妙变成你的ketua -.-
怎样骂人家不出声,是因为不想你在junior面前下衰

什么都不懂要怎样的,我也看过
"明天要做xxx,你怎样?"
"不知道啊..."  "明天给答案啊."
不过不管你问他几次,他的答案还是不知道
就是那种不知道要怎样的人
跟他吃饭,可能花半个小时选菜 -.-

比较好的,就是包青天型的
该骂的时候骂,总是问原因的明理人,
这种人好很多,至少他是真会明白我们
但是在有重要事情时,真的不好意思啦 .__.

我还看过视巡察员如命的
在很久以前,有个人开了个group 'Anti Pengawas'
这个Group里面的人专骂巡察员,
我们可爱的巡察员们就去除魔咯,
然后自己拿来气,在学校讨论学生的不对 -.-

还有哦,只会讲,不会做的!
这种人啊,开会就在那里孙子兵法
你会觉得他讲的方法好像有market酱
但是3,4个月过后你就知道他是在纸上谈兵的 -.-

个人认为,我不需要职位(可能你不信)对我而言,那个sijil不代表什么,你喜欢,不要给就不要给
我不觉得做得越多,得到的回报越大 (正所谓'付出的不一定等于你收回的') xD

基本上没什么好做的,请不要说什么'为什么jiang讲,blah blah...'
一样很有道理的说法就是,吵来吵去没有用的,和平至上 -.-
个人说法就是:
你们有没有幼稚一点,你懂不懂整天'Apa yang melucukan?' 'awak beri muka saya tengok ar?'
'boleh initiative sikit tak?' LOL
其实不要问咯,你问的话就代表我也可以答'awak yang melucukan' 'so obvious lo' 'tak boleh'

*重申一次,我没针对谁,不要自己找位子坐 -.-

 不过你要酱觉得,真的没办法啦

I'm sorry I hate it

Clairabell