What to do?

There's once
where I held his hand

understands everything he said
knows whatever is on his mind

but still,I asked myself

'What to do?'

*

'What was your ex like?'
I asked,when we started dating

'umm...short,and chubby'
he answered,as though he was only her friend back then

'Huh? I mean her personalities'

'Cheerful,I guess'
Again,with that attitude

'Did you guys had special memories?'

'Uhh...not really,we eat,talk and laugh,but nothing special,really'
He said

I couldn't understand,is that it?

'Not even a little fight or quarrel?'
I asked,because most couples around me get into quarrel

'Nope,that's why I broke up with her'

'Huh..? I thought that was really steady,isn't it?'
A relationship without any fights,how nice is that

'Ya it is,it was very steady,where it reach a level that made me wonder'
he continued

'Why don't we get into fights like normal couples?'

I kept quiet,wondering what is wrong with a steady relationship

'You see,when someone is in love,they don't go on a day without worrying that certain person'
He paused

'And when a couple is together,I don't think going for a long run without quarrel is possible'

'Like us?'
I smiled,we quarrel sometimes,and I don't even knew it was a necessity in relationships to him

'Yes,we quarrel,that's how we know what is on each other's mind'

'I believe a relationship where nobody ask 'what to do' doesn't exist'
he added

I nodded,couldn't agree more

*

A steady relationship is what everyone would hope for

But nothing will be steady at the beginning

At some point,fights and quarrels made you realize how are you treating your love

Then ask yourself 'What to do?'

change? improve? surprise him/her?

Whatever it is,they build up your relationship,whether good or bad

Until now,I still believe

If you're serious enough,
Quarrels,distance,differences are all seasonings and spices to a relationship
Thanks,wind

闲聊。

学期假期开始后都忙着找活动

烹饪,绘画,音乐,跑步,逛街

这些活动,好像真的很充实

但我没有感觉到,那份充实

好像少了些什么

说不清,也没法说清

*

''在KL过得好吗?''

他朦胧地问

突然间的闲聊,我不习惯

''不好,没有东西做,我好无聊''

我不明白为何自己这样说

难道所有活动都没有意义?

''KL很多地方逛啊,我很想念那里''

''我出生就在这儿了,你觉得还能有什么好玩的?''

片刻沉默,他继续说

''我在这边也很无聊''

''是吗?我还以为外国很好玩''

太奢侈了吧,明明就在国外了,怎么无聊

''你在KL久了,当然觉得它不好玩了,是吧?''

''...是啊''

无奈,他总是让我无法反驳

''等我回来了,我去找你''

''啊?找我干吗?''

''等你看着我怀念KL的样子你就不无聊了啊''

''你记得给我买纪念品就行了''

*

短短的闲聊

我才发现,我不是没有充实感

我只是想去别的地方,看别的风景

听着朋友说在KL发生过的琐碎事情

才发现原来自己的地方说起来,也挺怀念的

才发现他不在,好像连能捉弄的人都少了

KL现在很多高楼大厦了
小孩子们都没有以前那么活泼了

你都不在这里让我欺负了
我都找不到像你一样的好朋友了

*

有些风景,你看到厌倦了
离开了才觉得特别

有些人,你要到他们离开了
才发现他们原来那么好

有些时候,你真的需要好好珍惜

说不定哪一天,他真的会离开

然后留下你一个人后悔

What?

This is a bit boring,bear with me :)

*

They always hang out together

Both of them talk about everything

Everything, but feelings

Seems like the only forbidden area of topics

It's not because they are waiting for each other to start the topic

Because they know

Whoever starts it puts both of them into an awkward situation

Where they may not be friends anymore
Where they cannot laugh,cry or hug together anymore
Where they couldn't share everything with each other anymore

Where nothing will be the same anymore

Neither of them have the courage

What do you think about them in the future?

I'd only imagine some day

One of them might gather enough courage

To tell the other one

'I love you

Maybe as a friend
Maybe as a spouse
Maybe as my family

Whichever it is,I love you'

And the other one would be like

'WHAT? I didn't hear you the first time'

And things get even better after that

*

I'm not trying to focus everything on love as a valentine or boy/girlfriend

You can have a bad ending after one of them said it like:

-Maybe they start pissing each other off because they knew each other too well?
-Things got awkward,and they start drifting off and revert to strangers

I chose happy ending just because I want to be positive

All I wanted to say is words have the tendency to affect someone
Your words may influence someone easily

whether in a positive or negative way

Sometimes it's best to shut up and listen
Sometimes you just need to share your feelings so people wouldn't misunderstand

And sometimes,it's a good way to step closer to the people you love