That one moment

One moment,

enough to feel everything

enough to realize everything

*

Ever had those moments where you suddenly realized something?

That you're loved,you were wrong,you were...I don't know,not who you are?

I have few of those moments

Bear with me,this is a long post

I enjoy reading novels,usually Harry Potter during my free time

That one day,I woke up and stared at my notes on the wall

Notes with everything I've experienced

I stared for at least 1 hour

I just couldn't do anything on that day

I need a break

I know,at that moment,I was tired

I have been trying to please people who doesn't know how to appreciate me for the past few months

and I'm exhausted

The second time this happened was few weeks ago

My key-ring went missing

I kept it by my side for 2+ years

It was impossible for me to misplace it

But it went missing

I should've known

it was time to let go

Probably someone pick it up

...or it just don't wanna be found

The last time this happened was on 7th of October this year

The time I just decided to stay isolated

But after overhearing what I'm not supposed to hear

I know I was never alone

There are always ways and chances for someone to be loved

  or to love someone

no matter if they deserve your love,take the chances

Either learn a lesson or gain a bonus in life

Staying still is safe,but it doesn't get you anywhere further

*

People don't change for no reason

1st

Sometimes I don't like to please people just for the sake of being in the circle

In fact,I feel uneasy around people I can't cope with

Some people talks a lot behind others,but they're still friends with the people they hate

I don't question that

but I don't kiss people's asses and take shit from them

Just because I can't be lonely

I didn't change,I just stop pleasing people I dislike

2nd

I used to carry this small little key-ring with me

It was broken at its first year

But I love it so much that I still put it in my pockets,purse or bag

I felt so safe when I brought it along

Like it was a part of me and will always be

I always thought I would never misplace it

but it happened.

Things change in life,they come and go for their own reasons

They may come back or not at all

you either wait for it or just move on with your life

In my case,I just have to let go of it

Maybe this way I will be happier

Maybe he is happier now too.

3rd

I like the phrase 'one in a million'

You see,some people think materialize things can be replaced easily

Some people think you can just get new friends whenever you lost your old ones

Not really

I met my best friend,got my own photo frame,video

They are all the one in a million things to me

Different people,places and things have different meanings to people

Everyone have their own unique taste or feelings towards someone or something

I've always thought my chances of meeting someone who's one in a million is already gone

I lost someone who took me for who I really am years ago

I regretted and never met that kind of person again

But then things changed

I am so glad that I have the chance of meeting 2 of these people in the crowd

Life's constantly changing,don't try to feel secure with not changing at all

After all,you only live once *YOLO! lol*

至:我的那些年

虽然很落后了,但我终于看了'那些年,我们一起追的女孩'这部电影

也因为这部电影,让我想把已经生锈的华语拿出来献丑

*
我不知道你是我的柯景腾还是沈佳宜
我只能说你是我的那些年

2年
说多不多,说少不少

这2年不管面对着什么问题时,总会觉得"你在身边的话,有多好"

但我相信你不想听到我这么说,所以你给我的一字一句我都牢牢地记在心里

成长是永远的路途
有些人,到了死胡同就不会再转出来,干脆在那里住下来
有些人,怎么转也转错路,错过很多美好的事物

而我,不断地徘徊在那个分叉路口

走不下去,也选择不了

一直到今年年中
遇到了一个让我明白我到底要什么的人

虽然到最后我们不得不为了一些难理解的原因分道扬镳

朋友问我: "他有怎样吗? 你又怎样了? "
我能答的只有: "我不知道他怎么了,但我过得很好。"

朋友们不相信我没事,也难怪的

这我才明白当时你的感受
或许在这时经历所谓的低潮期

会特别花时间去想了很多很多的东西

才知道,我真的有好好的珍惜过他
而当你知道没结果的时候,就该放手
把伤害减到最低

也不愿意为了一时的不甘心,勉强地把两个人的未来绑在一起

而且
被你喜欢过,让我觉得其他人都没那么喜欢我 *摘自九把刀*

当个成熟的人很不容易
所以我很佩服你能包容以前那个幼稚的我

你说你今年毕业
我也不能肯定自己会不会去祝福你

但我想在这里先好好地告诉你:

" 人生的路真的很长很远,谢谢你曾出现在路途中给我带了一段路。也谢谢你的旅程中
有过我的存在。就算再也不能听说你的故事,我希望你以后有什么困难都能走过去,面对
什么挫折也能站起来。

虽然陪在你身边的不会是我,但你的好总会被发现,在你遇到那个人的时候就请记得
我给你的祝福。愿你能永远幸福。"

*
我也不再一个人面对选择和挫折

即使这个世界怎么变,始终有些人不会变
也总有人会疼惜自己

曾几何时,我从放不下你的班级毕业了
即使不能回到过去,也拥有能翻阅的回忆

谢谢你让我明白幸福是什么

谢谢你,我的那些年
我们是永远的朋友

it's enough

Forgive me if you think whoever I wrote here is you

I had enough

Enough of you go around talking like it's my fault

I didn't mean that I'm angry
I just had enough

If you think I ruined your life so much
Then stop mentioning me in your life

Regret? Disgusting? Can't even imagine?

BULLSHIT

I had some down times with you guys but did I go around talking about it?

How did you guys act
People can see it,and I don't even need to tell them about it

Use your brains
If I wanna talk about you guys

I have plenty to tell
But did I?

I DIDN'T

I believe in my own choice
And I won't try to change yours or others'

Listen carefully

I made some mistakes
But it doesn't mean that you guys had no fault at all

Whatever you did were right and I was wrong?

Come on
If you were not sorry to me,nobody will comment about you

When I did something wrong,you guys talk talk talk
Ya I was wrong,I tried to learn from my mistakes

But when you did things I hate
Did you do anything about it?

Crap about it everywhere visible?

Please,imagine if I do the same thing to you
It will never be a good experience

Who are you to comment about it?

*
Again,I have to stretch

Please don't add any imaginary stories to this

I need MY BLOG to vent my feelings

I'm okay :)

He is a lover

I know I rarely do this but please read these carefully

This is about my little lover

This,is Lucky
A mixed-breed of German Shepherd & Golden Retriever adopted in a morning market

He enjoys laying on my arm & wait me to pet him
He can't stand me leaving him alone but sit still when I have to go
He lets me yell at him but still waits for me to calm down
He knows when he's wrong & waited to be forgiven
He will sit still & smile when he heard 'Look here,Lucky'

I didn't train him like a professional,but I like how it all works
As I'm the only one he will do a high-five without any treats

Yes,it's not about my boyfriend -.-

I love dogs
I enjoy looking at their movements & take more photos of them than myself

There are more than 800 photos of dogs in my drive

Every time I look at the photos,I'd wonder
Why are there so many animal abusing case?

Especially dogs,when you called them man's best friends

I found most of the dogs being abandoned & abused are mutts (mixed-breed dogs)
It rarely occurs to the so called 'purebred'

I hate people who judges dogs with their appearances

Let's be honest,most people here have Poodles as their first choice
Because it's cute,furry,and tiny

The most hurtful thing I felt for Lucky is when I brought him to DPC
the poodle came to smell him out and the owner went
'xxx,come back,he'll bite you'  'huge dogs are so busy body'

Hello,my dog is trained not to bite & bark when yours does

Also,since when are dogs' characteristics depends on their size?

I don't hold any anger towards little dogs that are more loved
I blamed people for rearing dogs just for their appearance

I wanted to ask

Did you buy a dog because of its appearance,or because you really love dogs?
Can you choose a mutt over a purebred if you have to?
Would you love a mutt as much as you love a purebred?

They love you for all the time they could

So what's the difference when a stray dog shows that love for you?

Love every furry friend your precious baby can meet
Not all dogs are aggressive,not all dogs bite

And there's never an aggressive dog breed
Only a owner who couldn't train them well

They are lovers
not dolls for you to dress
not sandbags for you to express

How to leave

Okay,I have to answer one of the most asked question of all time

How do you leave someone you love so much?
Is there really a way?

Is it really possible to leave them?

Yes,it is possible,and it hurts like hell

Every time they hurt you,you made up your mind
You wanted to leave

Wanted to leave so badly,yet your heart still ask you

'Really? You really want to leave him/her?'
'Are you sure?'

I'll admit I still have flash back whenever I went to places we've been together
I still remember how happy I was with them,with him,with her

But ultimately,you have to ask yourself

'Why am I thinking to leave at the first time?'
'Is it my fault? Or I should give a second chance?'

Personally,the only time I've faced this situation is when it's related to love & friendship
Some people only face this when it's related to love

I've been through a really really tough time to decide how to leave

Note,it's not only leaving the relationship behind
It's leaving your feelings
giving up on all the 'used to be'
reverting to normal friends,strangers,you name it

No matter how good you think that person might be
You have to decide,is he/she really good to me?

Should I keep our relationship?

It isn't healthy to cling on a relationship
Where you have to endure all the feelings alone
Where you find it difficult to tell him/her your real feelings
Where you get hurt & must stand up all by yourself
Where you knew it was not right for the both of you

Where the other one doesn't tell you 'It's us against the world,mate' or something similar

If it's hurting you,don't just weep
If it hurts the first time,go figure out what's wrong
When it hurts the second time,that just mean things aren't really working out

It's time to consider leaving

It is hard to leave someone who gave you so much happiness
But don't you think
if they could give you such happiness,why can't they figure out your sadness too?
Why couldn't you feel better?

Read carefully,if you're hurting that doesn't necessarily mean it's their fault

It maybe your own attitude problem
scan yourself before you go on telling everyone 'he/she hurts me'

I'm not a GURU
So at the end of the day,I'd only say

If you wanna leave,then leave completely
Don't linger around them because you're not a beggar

If you really don't want to,then change yourself
Complaining,whining & crying,they all don't help

Judging people much?

I'm so sorry that this is going to be kinda personal

So I heard this line while I was talking to my friends in college
'Huh? She(referring to me) is from SMK Jinjang?'

'What's wrong?-my friend

'I heard there's a lot of bad students there'

*

Okay,first of all
Do you understand not every person on this world is exactly the same?
You do?
Then you must've understood that if there's up,then there's down,right?

You know there's good and evil right?
White and black?
Love and hate?

You do? Seriously?
Then why do you think that if there's bad students here,then all of them are bad?

My school might not be the best

But know this:

Some of our students are the winners of poetry,maths,chess,and most of the talent you can think of
Some even got their essays feature in books,学海
Some can produce their own music
Some can sing good songs

We don't have much clubs
Some of them won rewards for us
Some perform for other schools
Some won in marching contests

We have biology students who can slice an animal's throat with no mercy
We have addmath students who can finish a set of questions without calculators
We have art students who can draw everything based on memories,and adding imagination too
We have that few students who always won rewards and trophies for our school
We have students who could break their own sport records

Not a big deal right?
Every school have these students

Ya,let's not focus on what good things you have

I'm sure your school have students who smokes
students who talk back to teachers
students who just couldn't wear their shirts right
students who can't really study
students who fight and quarrel
students with stinky attitude

See?
I can find flaws easily if you want me to

How do you like that?
Despite all your good records,I focus on your bad side

Doesn't feel good,don't you?

I may have hate my school,but not the students
My school might have bad students,but how about the good ones?

Those who work their heads off until late night
Those who read until they can't eat
Those who put stress on themselves even if you don't preach
Those who got sick because of studies

They are awesome

And just because you HEARD our students are bad
They have to be looked down too?

Put yourself in their shoes,how would you feel?

*
Frankly I was very much disappointed when I heard this

I was a student there,do you mean I may be bad?
Throwing a judgement like that to my old school,it's like giving me a label in the past

If you wanted to
You can always find bad characteristics in a person
But you can also find good things about the very same person too

That's a very simple statement
If you're so good then tell me,
Why do you judge our school by stating 'there's a lot of bad students there'

There could be a lot of good students there too,am I right?

I guess the only answer to your statement is
'So your school doesn't have any bad students? That's good to hear' (in a sarcastic way)

You can judge my school,because I admit the rules are kinda stupid sometimes
But judge my fellow students and friends,you crossed the line,mate

What to do?

There's once
where I held his hand

understands everything he said
knows whatever is on his mind

but still,I asked myself

'What to do?'

*

'What was your ex like?'
I asked,when we started dating

'umm...short,and chubby'
he answered,as though he was only her friend back then

'Huh? I mean her personalities'

'Cheerful,I guess'
Again,with that attitude

'Did you guys had special memories?'

'Uhh...not really,we eat,talk and laugh,but nothing special,really'
He said

I couldn't understand,is that it?

'Not even a little fight or quarrel?'
I asked,because most couples around me get into quarrel

'Nope,that's why I broke up with her'

'Huh..? I thought that was really steady,isn't it?'
A relationship without any fights,how nice is that

'Ya it is,it was very steady,where it reach a level that made me wonder'
he continued

'Why don't we get into fights like normal couples?'

I kept quiet,wondering what is wrong with a steady relationship

'You see,when someone is in love,they don't go on a day without worrying that certain person'
He paused

'And when a couple is together,I don't think going for a long run without quarrel is possible'

'Like us?'
I smiled,we quarrel sometimes,and I don't even knew it was a necessity in relationships to him

'Yes,we quarrel,that's how we know what is on each other's mind'

'I believe a relationship where nobody ask 'what to do' doesn't exist'
he added

I nodded,couldn't agree more

*

A steady relationship is what everyone would hope for

But nothing will be steady at the beginning

At some point,fights and quarrels made you realize how are you treating your love

Then ask yourself 'What to do?'

change? improve? surprise him/her?

Whatever it is,they build up your relationship,whether good or bad

Until now,I still believe

If you're serious enough,
Quarrels,distance,differences are all seasonings and spices to a relationship
Thanks,wind

闲聊。

学期假期开始后都忙着找活动

烹饪,绘画,音乐,跑步,逛街

这些活动,好像真的很充实

但我没有感觉到,那份充实

好像少了些什么

说不清,也没法说清

*

''在KL过得好吗?''

他朦胧地问

突然间的闲聊,我不习惯

''不好,没有东西做,我好无聊''

我不明白为何自己这样说

难道所有活动都没有意义?

''KL很多地方逛啊,我很想念那里''

''我出生就在这儿了,你觉得还能有什么好玩的?''

片刻沉默,他继续说

''我在这边也很无聊''

''是吗?我还以为外国很好玩''

太奢侈了吧,明明就在国外了,怎么无聊

''你在KL久了,当然觉得它不好玩了,是吧?''

''...是啊''

无奈,他总是让我无法反驳

''等我回来了,我去找你''

''啊?找我干吗?''

''等你看着我怀念KL的样子你就不无聊了啊''

''你记得给我买纪念品就行了''

*

短短的闲聊

我才发现,我不是没有充实感

我只是想去别的地方,看别的风景

听着朋友说在KL发生过的琐碎事情

才发现原来自己的地方说起来,也挺怀念的

才发现他不在,好像连能捉弄的人都少了

KL现在很多高楼大厦了
小孩子们都没有以前那么活泼了

你都不在这里让我欺负了
我都找不到像你一样的好朋友了

*

有些风景,你看到厌倦了
离开了才觉得特别

有些人,你要到他们离开了
才发现他们原来那么好

有些时候,你真的需要好好珍惜

说不定哪一天,他真的会离开

然后留下你一个人后悔

What?

This is a bit boring,bear with me :)

*

They always hang out together

Both of them talk about everything

Everything, but feelings

Seems like the only forbidden area of topics

It's not because they are waiting for each other to start the topic

Because they know

Whoever starts it puts both of them into an awkward situation

Where they may not be friends anymore
Where they cannot laugh,cry or hug together anymore
Where they couldn't share everything with each other anymore

Where nothing will be the same anymore

Neither of them have the courage

What do you think about them in the future?

I'd only imagine some day

One of them might gather enough courage

To tell the other one

'I love you

Maybe as a friend
Maybe as a spouse
Maybe as my family

Whichever it is,I love you'

And the other one would be like

'WHAT? I didn't hear you the first time'

And things get even better after that

*

I'm not trying to focus everything on love as a valentine or boy/girlfriend

You can have a bad ending after one of them said it like:

-Maybe they start pissing each other off because they knew each other too well?
-Things got awkward,and they start drifting off and revert to strangers

I chose happy ending just because I want to be positive

All I wanted to say is words have the tendency to affect someone
Your words may influence someone easily

whether in a positive or negative way

Sometimes it's best to shut up and listen
Sometimes you just need to share your feelings so people wouldn't misunderstand

And sometimes,it's a good way to step closer to the people you love

此刻情绪化

我真的没什么用华语来写部落格
今天就特别想用华语

没有为什么

*

很多人都告诉我
你需要积极一点

很多事情,不是我不积极
也不是我不想去做

多的时候我只是害怕和不敢

我害怕的是以往跌过的痛
害怕会得到一样的成果

我不敢是因为我不相信
我不信任何没有保障的东西

生活不是数学
我不能把 '可能' 和 '不可能' 都计算出来

即使成功的机率是99%
还有一个1%呢

虽说有些事情真的该自己去尝试

我只是想说
我试了,可是我的努力换来了心碎,眼泪和让自己颓废的理由

如果真的可以看到自己的成功率
我是多努力也愿意

所有东西都需要去争取

我很愿意争取

但耐心和心志会被一点一点削薄

我拼命地向机会求婚
为的是听到 '我愿意' 时的幸福感

我也会累

亲爱的,你何时才会嫁给我?

*

最近真的很累

'不要累坏了'
'你该休息了'

这时候真的很有用

多希望自己在飞越大海的时刻
有那么一个会关心自己的人

我不贪心,一个就好
可以吗?

再快的车也要停下来加油
再豪华的船也需要靠岸

再坚强的人总需要一个港湾
就像再独立的人总需要归属感

概括以上,我过得还好
只是偶尔会像这样情绪化一下

生活就是要会享受,要开心

可如果大家都只有同一张笑脸时
这不是和没有感情一样吗

And so I blogged

I have a habit of watching good films again and again

That's right,GOOD films

Those that made you felt like watching it once is not enough

My personal favourite production team is Studio Ghibli or Pixar

Both of them produces meaningful animated movies

*try finding some of the movies online,it's amazing*

Back to my habit

I watch this movie-Spirited Away from time to time,every year

At least 5 times annually

No,I'm not really childish

I don't think watching animated films or cartoons is childish either

Anyway,it's not that I missed my childhood or anything *sometimes I'm*

Only this movie gives me different feelings every time I watch it

When I was 10,this movie just came out

No doubt it gave me a great time,but I only thought of 'How nice,she gets to go back now'

At 13,I starts wondering how would she end up if she can't go back to the real world

Maybe she'll start a new life there,idk

At 15,I realize I'm just like her,I don't know how to handle anything by myself

In other words,I'm a spoiled brat

At 18,which happens to be now

I read the making of this film,the concept,everything

Apparently,Hayao Miyazaki had the imagination of a thousand kids

This movie was solely based on his thinking of 'Don't Gods get tired?' at the first place

The characters are added in to this thinking,

Many things have their own special meaning,every detail is special

There's a concept of the world I like there

Real names are the first requirement to escape the world

I don't wanna bored you with everything I read,

If you really wanna know how special it is,just buy the book :D

This little path way in Penang reminded me of the movie somehow

*         *          *

Personally I think television shows nowadays are kinda crappy

Studio Ghibli & Pixar touches everyone with their different concepts in every movie they made

Pixar often show a different perspective of viewing things from their films

A rat that cooks,a house that flies,toys with feelings

We call that 'thinking out of the box!'

Studio Ghibli is where Hayao Miyazaki let imaginations fly around

He made movies for every children,from the small ones to the big ones,like me

Each movie was tailored for a specific age group 

In his movies,he often reminds people

to be grateful,to be brave,

to love, to let go, to grow up

That's what many real life films are missing

'Once you have the memories you'll never forget,you just need to remember,or find it,in your heart'

I miss my secondary school life recently,this was just what I needed

After a few weeks of uni,it finally hit me

I really miss you guys,hope everyone is doing well now

What is UNI/College Life?

The title said it all
So,what is UNI/College life like?

I wonder how many form 5 can't wait to grow up and go to Uni right now

I just had few classes today
I don't think everyone is looking it my way

Seriously,Uni is fun,tons of fun
but at the same time,it is harsh and tough

It's not like secondary school or high school where you have teachers to tell you what to do

By the time you got into a college or uni
You should know how to handle things yourself

At this time,
most people say you find what career you wanna have,what you wanna do in the future
Who you are,what do you want etc.

The so-called 'finding yourself'

For me,it's not like that
Going to Uni made me start to realize who I am actually,not who I wanna be

People can't just say 'I wanna be a doctor' and becomes one for real
*unless you're really really rich*

We find what our specialties are and focus on it,
that's why we get to choose what subjects we're going to take

Also,it's not all about the straight As SPM students

There're loads of student in M'sia can do that now,it's not much of a big deal

Well,maybe to them it is a big deal,idk

The problem is,you can't be a jack of all trades but master of none

You gotta have a special talent or something like that to be outstanding

Or you can just study all the things you can,
and start finding companies and jobs as soon as you graduate

There are too many universities graduates nowadays,so you're just one of them
so unfortunately,unlike those who have a priority card,you need to buy it before it runs out

Okay,that's how I see the future roads or whatever you called it

*
Now I'm talking about friends
I had enough drama in secondary school and I don't want it in my Uni life

Don't take everything so freakin' personal

Unless you're really insecure and I hurt you,then I'm sorry

With all the studies and exams we have to do,we can really use some friendships in here

I can't ask anyone to stop backstabbing me since you're 'back'stabbing me

If you're 13-16,I can just ignore you since you don't have any idea what life is
If you're 85-90 and senile,I would get you some tea and still smile at you

But if you're about my age,I'd only say this:

'Grow the f**k up'

I get it that everyone must have something to talk about someone else
That's part of a friendship too

But if you're really my friend,tell me in my face
like my Hot Blood Gang did

Then again,if I don't have someone talking behind me
it wouldn't prove that I'm good enough to make someone jealous

If that certain someone isn't your friend at all,cheers!
That just meant you have something better than them

anyways,that's how I view my new life recently :D

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I just attended few classes,I don't have a full view of my uni life yet

But wanting to meet someone that you know in my campus is kinda hard
Even if we kept on asking each other 'When are you having a break?' 'Where the hell are you?!'

It's hard,really hard,at the end we need to wait for the other one to finish class just to meet up

To all who are going to uni or college,enjoy it while you can! :)

Penang :)

After the 3 days in Penang I'm finally going to update this blog

I only took a little photos because I don't have much time on each place I went

I seriously love everything there
The people,the food,the shops,the scenery

this is one of my victims in Penang XD

She's very very cute,too bad I didn't get a clear shot of her big eyes and chubby face

Yea the sea wasn't very beautiful as expected but it's clear enough

Also,this trip made me realized KL can't compare with Penang

The streets there don't have a single litter and most people there don't rush life

Unlike KL,the people there always try to communicate
I'm not saying KL is worst than Penang
But at least the people there are kind enough to tell you where to go when you seems lost

Yea,you don't really need to ask much
They'll help you,even if you didn't ask for it

That's my compliment to Penang

Most KL people would just go away and then say 'Looks like that person lost his way'

But nothing's perfect,Penang don't have much facilities that we have in KL
Guess that made us the way we were

Nevertheless
Visit Penang if you have the chance :D

I love KL,but sometimes we have to find things in other places

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Here's something I'm quite happy about

I just started uploading my pictures from my trip yesterday

Then I got some responds from a few people saying

'you know,your photos made me feel like going to Penang again,why didn't I see what you saw?'

I dare not to say I'm a good photographer,
I don't even dare to consider myself as a photographer

But yes,you gave me motivations

As starter,a photographer must see what's hidden within the ordinary things

Hopefully I'm getting there *or I think I'm getting there* :)

一路走来,HBG

啊 貌似这是久违的华文

最近一直被误会是外国人,可能因为骨骼大吧 D:

我是华人啦

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前天替振林庆祝了他18岁的生日

事后他给我们发了封信息说
第一次好好地庆祝生日
他不会表达谢意

拼命地赶着弄video总算没有浪费
收集祝福时,看到我们每个人都会加个'HBG Forever'

感触良多啊

我们因为在马六甲开始了解现在的彼此

形成了Hot Blood Gang
可惜我们发现彼此的时间有点迟

因为都快毕业了

毕业后大家都很积极地继续维持这份感情

然后第一次到处去拜年
还有一起捞生

一起买礼物过圣诞节

一起庆祝生日

一起看贺岁片

很多人毕业以后会各散东西
开始新生活,认识新朋友

但是我们就算工作了,认识新朋友了
我们还是不断找时间聚在一起

就我们十几个
不需要去多远,吃多贵,出来喝个茶,吃个饭

就已经很足够了

知道有人为你弄video,收集祝福
给你惊喜

这几种事情,真的很难得

我不是一个可以完全表达所有感情的人
说真的,我也不完全明白自己

有时候
我有想说的话,想做的事

都会收起来

因为我就是这样长大的
父母说什么,就听什么

我的责任,就是听从所有教诲
不管我对它有任何意见

但是和你们在一起
我可以当我自己

或许你们就是人家常说的'真正的知心朋友'

谢谢你们


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我的父母常常限制我的选择

我不会说他们是阻止我前进的人
只是我以前不知道我有更好的选择

让我了解这一点的,是我身边的这几位热血青年 :D

其实一起出去的次数可能会越来越少
看到每次接近结束时
大家开始拼命找日子再相聚

生日,节日,聚会

我很感动

我们的相聚很短,以后还可能不常见面
可是相对的,可能上着课常常见了

会看不出这份友谊的可贵

祝我们友谊永固

HBG Forever =)

18 already?! part 2

So after two weeks of working,
We're finally celebrating our birthday!

It's my first time sharing my birthday celebration with others
It feels really good :D

On the way from Loudspeaker to D'Fortune

Here's my wishes:
1.There's no world ending in 2012
2.Don't ever,Ever lost contact with anyone of my close friends
3.My family

thank you guys for getting us all these!!! It's awesomeeeee!!!

The people on the next table was like 'WTH? So many presents?'
haha jk :D

Here's all my buddies celebrating with us

Also our creative friend Xin Rong made these!

here's before

and u open it,here!Flowers!

You get this? It's AMAZING!
he spent 5 days making our gifts perfect!

Really,I love it :D

Okay enough with us
It's Chinese New Year!

Hope y'all have a safe trip back to home town
Get loads of Ang Pau! XD

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Many said we should appreciate our families on CNY

Yes we should,but I'm not forgetting my friends too ;)

Anyone who gives you joy are the ones you should appreciate

Happy Chinese New Year!

Recent life?it's A for awesome!

Hi guys,I'm back on updating this blog again!

recently I'm teaching and working as a promoter on weekends

How's working life?
It's A.W.E.S.O.M.E

I'm starting to love having children around me now
They're really cute,but sometimes a big pain

Something good about them is that they show everything and tells everything
It's something most of us can't do anymore :)

I'm kinda happy about this baby finally get to meet me too

It's kinda true that the battery went out fast but nothing's perfect

The good thing about it was its function and speed,not to mention the camera too x)

Also my promoter job brings me loads of joy,but seriously Jusco Kepong need to be soft on rules

Meet Pui Yan,the pretty girl promoting Revive Isotonic ;)

Ignore my retard face -w-

There's a lot more friends I get to know but sadly we didn't take pic
All because we're too busy talking :D

I get to know Jinny who is a SMKP student and she's really nice to talk with XD

Loiss Lim was the one with the Chips More and Tiger biscuits!
When I forgot to eat breakfast I'll just find him -w-

Then there's that guy promoting Tropicana,Ray Quan
seriously he is so 38!
Thanks for the fun la XD

Thanks to the girl selling POP for taking care of my items every time I'm on a break
Also my friends for visiting me on my work like Yippee Yaya,my dear Leo junior

especially Kelsey Lim,who happened to be home that day
and sadly,she went back to the hostel on that day too :(

I miss talking to her,she's always so straight forward and funny

Then there's a few aunties who were really nice to me,thank you very much ;)

Also not forgetting Jian Wei,that Lipton guy with no sense of directions :D
Sorry for the trouble,but you get me into lots of trouble too.So we're even

These are my adorable students

this is the smart one,BB
He can learn anything quickly and remembers it like a boss :D

This is Jun Yi,my innocent boy :D

FYI I'm teaching 5 years old

After working so much,it's time to visit my Lucky :D

He knows how to 'kiss' now! ;D

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I've been told my blog was full of my feelings back then
and now it's not

Yes,because there's a lot of things going on lately

Also,
if I need to give every detail about my life then it means I'm not capable of handling it myself

No offence,but seriously I don't go telling everyone how bad or how good my life is
It's like I'm asking you guys to get involve in my problems
And sometimes,it's just bragging to all of you

My life is not amazing than yours nor a sad story
Because everyone has their amazing tales and the sad part of it

Mine is not more important than anyone of you :)

So be happy!

The 18 post will be post on next week,I think :P

Anyways,thanks for reading x)

18 already?! part 1

Hi guys! I'm officially 18 from now on!

I have so much to thanks and so many to say

I'm counting every wishes I got from y'all
the little picture on the bottom left was the proof that I've been counting ;)
the 1st gift I got was these few things with very much heart and also the video and poster :D

wishes stats(on11.04pm):
402 from FB
10 sms
17 FB msg
4 plurk wishes
2 callings

I'll do my best to appreciate all of you in my blog :)

First of all

Mickey G
Thanks very very much neh!!!!
He sings birthday songs for me on 12 am TT
Don't forget me next year leh!!!
I'll sing for you on your birthday too!!! <3

My HBG:
Alvin Loong
actually he's the earliest to wish me larh XD
thanks!!I'm not 傻 okay?
I'm just very 善良 XD jk

Xin Rong
This fella is super nice
He collected wishes from others and wishes me on phone too~
Also he's planning for our celebration XD
Thanks larh~know you work hard for us~ XD

Mario
I really owed her for making me a video
Really tired ar her~
redo the video again and again
very very thank you
I'm really touch XD

YY
She wishes me on plurk,fb msg,and on my wall
then she spam me -..-
That doesn't count as a gift!
Better buy me a new one XD
Thanks la~HBG forever!

Summer
This pig wishes me late 19 minutes~ XD
so tired from losing weight? -w-
10 years already~
Thanks
friends forever~XD

YPY
Thanks for treating me as your close friend x)
Sometimes we have the same problems
but really don't bother too much of it
Thanks very much for wishing me XD

SK
You......I have no words~
Thanks XD
No la~but I need a really nice gift from you XD jk

Joel
Thanks for making the poster
My face is so......'nice'?
Anyway hope you have a great time in NS
All the best :)

My Best Friends:
Wendy Low
This girl made a special card for me until 2 am?
Also my Kevin's photo XD
I love him very very much but I like the card better x)
she said she never draw anything before but she did on the card! XD
Thanks larh dear,and I love you too!!! :D

Mika
Seriously she made me a photo frame,and put all our memories together
I love that idea
And I'm never throwing it away!
I love you too!
Thanks!!! x)

Thanks to Kenny Tan
Who was waiting for 12 am so he can wishes me in FB
Thanks for everything :)
Listening and not judging
Thanks x)

Thanks to a few good friends
Mae
Caslie
Steven
Jenny
TWZ
Yi Wen
Mimi Koo
Ryan Wong
Kaye Chow
And others~

My Leos
Soya
Jane Lee
Yippee Yaya
Tham Jun Hao
Luk Chee Cheng
and more....

Thanks to all the Alvins,Jacksons,Kevins,Kelvins,and every single one of you who wishes me
I'm so sorry if I didn't mention your name in my blog
But every one of you counts,I won't forget you *if you had wish me*

Thanks for giving me a nice 18th Birthday
I love all of you ;)