He is a lover

I know I rarely do this but please read these carefully

This is about my little lover

This,is Lucky
A mixed-breed of German Shepherd & Golden Retriever adopted in a morning market

He enjoys laying on my arm & wait me to pet him
He can't stand me leaving him alone but sit still when I have to go
He lets me yell at him but still waits for me to calm down
He knows when he's wrong & waited to be forgiven
He will sit still & smile when he heard 'Look here,Lucky'

I didn't train him like a professional,but I like how it all works
As I'm the only one he will do a high-five without any treats

Yes,it's not about my boyfriend -.-

I love dogs
I enjoy looking at their movements & take more photos of them than myself

There are more than 800 photos of dogs in my drive

Every time I look at the photos,I'd wonder
Why are there so many animal abusing case?

Especially dogs,when you called them man's best friends

I found most of the dogs being abandoned & abused are mutts (mixed-breed dogs)
It rarely occurs to the so called 'purebred'

I hate people who judges dogs with their appearances

Let's be honest,most people here have Poodles as their first choice
Because it's cute,furry,and tiny

The most hurtful thing I felt for Lucky is when I brought him to DPC
the poodle came to smell him out and the owner went
'xxx,come back,he'll bite you'  'huge dogs are so busy body'

Hello,my dog is trained not to bite & bark when yours does

Also,since when are dogs' characteristics depends on their size?

I don't hold any anger towards little dogs that are more loved
I blamed people for rearing dogs just for their appearance

I wanted to ask

Did you buy a dog because of its appearance,or because you really love dogs?
Can you choose a mutt over a purebred if you have to?
Would you love a mutt as much as you love a purebred?

They love you for all the time they could

So what's the difference when a stray dog shows that love for you?

Love every furry friend your precious baby can meet
Not all dogs are aggressive,not all dogs bite

And there's never an aggressive dog breed
Only a owner who couldn't train them well

They are lovers
not dolls for you to dress
not sandbags for you to express

How to leave

Okay,I have to answer one of the most asked question of all time

How do you leave someone you love so much?
Is there really a way?

Is it really possible to leave them?

Yes,it is possible,and it hurts like hell

Every time they hurt you,you made up your mind
You wanted to leave

Wanted to leave so badly,yet your heart still ask you

'Really? You really want to leave him/her?'
'Are you sure?'

I'll admit I still have flash back whenever I went to places we've been together
I still remember how happy I was with them,with him,with her

But ultimately,you have to ask yourself

'Why am I thinking to leave at the first time?'
'Is it my fault? Or I should give a second chance?'

Personally,the only time I've faced this situation is when it's related to love & friendship
Some people only face this when it's related to love

I've been through a really really tough time to decide how to leave

Note,it's not only leaving the relationship behind
It's leaving your feelings
giving up on all the 'used to be'
reverting to normal friends,strangers,you name it

No matter how good you think that person might be
You have to decide,is he/she really good to me?

Should I keep our relationship?

It isn't healthy to cling on a relationship
Where you have to endure all the feelings alone
Where you find it difficult to tell him/her your real feelings
Where you get hurt & must stand up all by yourself
Where you knew it was not right for the both of you

Where the other one doesn't tell you 'It's us against the world,mate' or something similar

If it's hurting you,don't just weep
If it hurts the first time,go figure out what's wrong
When it hurts the second time,that just mean things aren't really working out

It's time to consider leaving

It is hard to leave someone who gave you so much happiness
But don't you think
if they could give you such happiness,why can't they figure out your sadness too?
Why couldn't you feel better?

Read carefully,if you're hurting that doesn't necessarily mean it's their fault

It maybe your own attitude problem
scan yourself before you go on telling everyone 'he/she hurts me'

I'm not a GURU
So at the end of the day,I'd only say

If you wanna leave,then leave completely
Don't linger around them because you're not a beggar

If you really don't want to,then change yourself
Complaining,whining & crying,they all don't help

Judging people much?

I'm so sorry that this is going to be kinda personal

So I heard this line while I was talking to my friends in college
'Huh? She(referring to me) is from SMK Jinjang?'

'What's wrong?-my friend

'I heard there's a lot of bad students there'

*

Okay,first of all
Do you understand not every person on this world is exactly the same?
You do?
Then you must've understood that if there's up,then there's down,right?

You know there's good and evil right?
White and black?
Love and hate?

You do? Seriously?
Then why do you think that if there's bad students here,then all of them are bad?

My school might not be the best

But know this:

Some of our students are the winners of poetry,maths,chess,and most of the talent you can think of
Some even got their essays feature in books,学海
Some can produce their own music
Some can sing good songs

We don't have much clubs
Some of them won rewards for us
Some perform for other schools
Some won in marching contests

We have biology students who can slice an animal's throat with no mercy
We have addmath students who can finish a set of questions without calculators
We have art students who can draw everything based on memories,and adding imagination too
We have that few students who always won rewards and trophies for our school
We have students who could break their own sport records

Not a big deal right?
Every school have these students

Ya,let's not focus on what good things you have

I'm sure your school have students who smokes
students who talk back to teachers
students who just couldn't wear their shirts right
students who can't really study
students who fight and quarrel
students with stinky attitude

See?
I can find flaws easily if you want me to

How do you like that?
Despite all your good records,I focus on your bad side

Doesn't feel good,don't you?

I may have hate my school,but not the students
My school might have bad students,but how about the good ones?

Those who work their heads off until late night
Those who read until they can't eat
Those who put stress on themselves even if you don't preach
Those who got sick because of studies

They are awesome

And just because you HEARD our students are bad
They have to be looked down too?

Put yourself in their shoes,how would you feel?

*
Frankly I was very much disappointed when I heard this

I was a student there,do you mean I may be bad?
Throwing a judgement like that to my old school,it's like giving me a label in the past

If you wanted to
You can always find bad characteristics in a person
But you can also find good things about the very same person too

That's a very simple statement
If you're so good then tell me,
Why do you judge our school by stating 'there's a lot of bad students there'

There could be a lot of good students there too,am I right?

I guess the only answer to your statement is
'So your school doesn't have any bad students? That's good to hear' (in a sarcastic way)

You can judge my school,because I admit the rules are kinda stupid sometimes
But judge my fellow students and friends,you crossed the line,mate

What to do?

There's once
where I held his hand

understands everything he said
knows whatever is on his mind

but still,I asked myself

'What to do?'

*

'What was your ex like?'
I asked,when we started dating

'umm...short,and chubby'
he answered,as though he was only her friend back then

'Huh? I mean her personalities'

'Cheerful,I guess'
Again,with that attitude

'Did you guys had special memories?'

'Uhh...not really,we eat,talk and laugh,but nothing special,really'
He said

I couldn't understand,is that it?

'Not even a little fight or quarrel?'
I asked,because most couples around me get into quarrel

'Nope,that's why I broke up with her'

'Huh..? I thought that was really steady,isn't it?'
A relationship without any fights,how nice is that

'Ya it is,it was very steady,where it reach a level that made me wonder'
he continued

'Why don't we get into fights like normal couples?'

I kept quiet,wondering what is wrong with a steady relationship

'You see,when someone is in love,they don't go on a day without worrying that certain person'
He paused

'And when a couple is together,I don't think going for a long run without quarrel is possible'

'Like us?'
I smiled,we quarrel sometimes,and I don't even knew it was a necessity in relationships to him

'Yes,we quarrel,that's how we know what is on each other's mind'

'I believe a relationship where nobody ask 'what to do' doesn't exist'
he added

I nodded,couldn't agree more

*

A steady relationship is what everyone would hope for

But nothing will be steady at the beginning

At some point,fights and quarrels made you realize how are you treating your love

Then ask yourself 'What to do?'

change? improve? surprise him/her?

Whatever it is,they build up your relationship,whether good or bad

Until now,I still believe

If you're serious enough,
Quarrels,distance,differences are all seasonings and spices to a relationship
Thanks,wind

闲聊。

学期假期开始后都忙着找活动

烹饪,绘画,音乐,跑步,逛街

这些活动,好像真的很充实

但我没有感觉到,那份充实

好像少了些什么

说不清,也没法说清

*

''在KL过得好吗?''

他朦胧地问

突然间的闲聊,我不习惯

''不好,没有东西做,我好无聊''

我不明白为何自己这样说

难道所有活动都没有意义?

''KL很多地方逛啊,我很想念那里''

''我出生就在这儿了,你觉得还能有什么好玩的?''

片刻沉默,他继续说

''我在这边也很无聊''

''是吗?我还以为外国很好玩''

太奢侈了吧,明明就在国外了,怎么无聊

''你在KL久了,当然觉得它不好玩了,是吧?''

''...是啊''

无奈,他总是让我无法反驳

''等我回来了,我去找你''

''啊?找我干吗?''

''等你看着我怀念KL的样子你就不无聊了啊''

''你记得给我买纪念品就行了''

*

短短的闲聊

我才发现,我不是没有充实感

我只是想去别的地方,看别的风景

听着朋友说在KL发生过的琐碎事情

才发现原来自己的地方说起来,也挺怀念的

才发现他不在,好像连能捉弄的人都少了

KL现在很多高楼大厦了
小孩子们都没有以前那么活泼了

你都不在这里让我欺负了
我都找不到像你一样的好朋友了

*

有些风景,你看到厌倦了
离开了才觉得特别

有些人,你要到他们离开了
才发现他们原来那么好

有些时候,你真的需要好好珍惜

说不定哪一天,他真的会离开

然后留下你一个人后悔