A reminder to the future me

For a few months,I've been traveling & running around a lot

Taiwan,Hong Kong,and this year...Macau

After traveling,or when I am traveling
I often asked myself
'What did I get by going to other people's home?'

To be able to see their culture? Taste their food?
What fulfillment is this? I asked myself

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I like my life,I always tell myself that there is no time wasted,just wrong turns & lessons from life
I know how I should spend my life

After passing 31.12.2013, my birthday came

I have never expected very much because of my birth date being so early
Not many would have time nor memory

It's fine, because I do not want to be reminded that I am older now

Accidents happen, though

My old friends from high school called up for an small gathering
they promised to celebrate 3 birthdays together

But they didn't keep their promise,they let us had our birthday cake on that day
No matter how much I hate cakes,I could not say No to this one

It was coffee-flavored, bitter,but left my heart so warm & sweet

Then my best friend called,and said that she would date me,and she did
Even though it was not the best, the time she sacrificed was already the best gift to me
because she was in exam period :)

I cannot be more lucky to have a friend like her
I do not care who will you become or how much will you change in the future
I will always take you as my best friend,and sometimes sister,so we can get discount off items

I have done horrible things to her, I could not protect what she loves
Yet she is still my friend, understanding how difficult it was to me as well :(

*My dear sweet boy,please don't forget us if there's better life there
You knew we love you & tried to give you everything that our money can afford
However,I knew,secretly,you have always wanted more love,more time from us
Because we are the ones you trust,and if you see this as a betrayal
I will not blame you at all,because I see myself as one too
Even if you are not mine,you are always in my heart
You have left so many memories & paw prints in our hearts
With your annoying brother Winston,both of you always melt my heart on the worst days
No matter how many things you've destroyed,we will always welcome you here
I love you with my whole heart,along with Winston & Mika
We will always always love you,and miss you so much
Please miss us when you are there

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Last but will never be the least
My big kid from previous Uni contacted me for a meet up with another friend
This surprised me so much

The last time we met was already many months ago
How time flies without us knowing

Too bad Andy couldn't make it

It was very fun,who knew that we are friends for 2 years now
I can still recalled the first time I met you in that quiet study hall

Memories with you will be hold dearly to my heart
I still hope some day we can do epic stuff together

I certainly did not expect you to post so many feelings in a photo

Even if without a cake,or fancy presents
You have done enough :D

People tend to think that 'more stuff is good'
I do not deny that,I like material things
but not one material can compare to a thoughtful heart

Great friends are very rare
and I am so glad that I have a few of them in my journey

But I will never ever wait in a crowd for 1 hour and 30+ minutes again,that was horrible!

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now,to myself

My wish is simple: be more mature

After eating different food,walking in different streets
I thought I have lived my life well
I was dead wrong
As my friends called me and said 'I want to celebrate your birthday with you' (even though a few days late :P)
I knew,I already live well,and must continue to do so

So dear future me,

If I miss someone,call that person
Some day,this person will miss you,and appreciate that you've called

If I hurt someone,say sorry
No matter with intention or not,you will always hurt somebody
You might not be wrong,but saying sorry will make things better

If someone hurts me,be a bigger person
As I said,you will always hurt somebody,so somebody will hurt you some day
When that happens,remember that you once hurt someone
So forgive them as you would like to be forgave

Be humble,there is always someone better
Be grateful,there are so many suffering,yet you are still alive
Be happy,why do you want to waste a limited life being all depressed & sad?

Love and be loved
Your little smile & hugs may make someone's day
As so many people had make yours,it's only fair to do the same :)

Always be positive about life
Life is never too easy nor too difficult
There will be drizzle,there will be hurricane
There will be sunshine,there will be rainbow
Sometimes a good friend,sometimes your foe
Sometimes a teacher,sometimes your nightmare
Maybe it's tough,but you will grow
Maybe you're happy,so let love spread
If you are sad,turn your head back
Look how much you've traveled
and never regret
Life is a journey,not a honeymoon

Now go on

The TVB fandom

I have not been watching any HongKong dramas for a while now
Most of the dramas were too plain & predictable,but nobody blames them,at least I don't

I stopped watching because:
1. I hate the drama-here-and-there & expired plot lines
2. I don't see much emotions,but I do see a lot of pimples & make up with my HD tv
3. The actors,particularly from TVB,are too boring

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I was very much in love with On Call 36,it was fresh & educational
However,OC 36 II did not give me any fresh views
All I can get from this new drama is that everyone will have some terminal illness,or accidents
They either get cured or died,then with the tear-jerking speech & talk

oh god not this again

I am really disappointed & stopped watching after the 3rd episode,then jumped to the finale
I see no real emotions from the actors & actresses,except for little Onion when his new gf dies

Kenneth was the best from OC 36 I,however no improvements in this one
Onion is very good in this one though *sorry I kept forgetting his name*

I did watched all of the episodes eventually,still not amused
A so-so drama to me,but who can get more bright ideas with so many dramas out here already?
Not many directors can pulled off a sequel,especially when the first film/drama was already too successful

Extra note-after visiting Hong Kong last month, now I feel like every drama was a bit of a lie
Hong Kong people are not that nice,maybe a few,but dramas are acting anyway so idk

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The drama that catches my eyes,was Bounty Lady-my盛lady
I was watching it for Dayo Wong, then fell in love with the drama

Dayo gives all of his best in this drama & Kate Tsui is not bad herself,despite being very new in comedy
I laughed & cried along the plot line

especially here,omg i cant even asdjkhf

Kate was very good with her eyes & love the small details with the expressions

While watching some episodes for the second time,I see why this drama caught my eyes
Dayo's expressions,voice & little actions with his hands were outstanding
I hear voice cracking when there should be voice cracking
I see tears rolling when a normal person would have tears rolling in their red eyes in such situations

you see any of this in other dramas?

Not much crazy crying scenes,not many 'Oh my God how could you do that?' kind of stupid plots
No smashing my stuff because that bitch got my guy (the closest thing I would smash is my pillow,when malaysia currency is so bad,we don't smash expensive things,because who knows when are you going to replace those things?)

The thing is, this drama is very 'down-to-earth'
Not many over-exaggerated plot lines,no I-am-a-super-nice-guy/girl
Maybe a few tweaks with the effects & some needed plot to prove their points
but I feel connected because this is how normal human life will be like

this,ahahahahaha

A little crazy things here & there,but not too dramatic
I will swallow my own feelings in real life in some situations
I will be very frustrated if nobody is there to love me
and yes, I would do most of the things in the drama for my best friends
This is how life is,I do not need a fairy tale drama to help me escape reality

It would be so perfect if the director stopped putting 陈敏之 in the spotlight almost 70% of the time

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Dayo went on to win Best Male Lead in the recent TVB anniversary
Many people reacted in a very bad way

What the bloody hell is wrong with you people?

I did not see expressions in Kenneth Ma like Dayo would have had
Captain Cool did stand out,but not that much

I do not see teary eyes nor shivering breathe when there should be in many of those actors
No pause between lines when situations will be very hard to get through
Maybe they have amazing speech & lines,but no,they do not blend into the stories 100%

The candidates are all very strong actors,but yea,I will pick Dayo based on all these dramas
Maybe he is not as handsome as many of the other candidates,or maybe not a 'manly' guy

Who cares? He deserved it for his PERFORMANCE
Not looks & some touchy feely lines merely scripted for the audiences to gain more 'AWWW,poor guy/girl'

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No offense to anyone rooting for others
But you would take it as offensive if you cannot study the words carefully anyway

I still love Captain Cool,but he is not the best KTHNXBYE

My dogs

Nobody reads blogs now
Social websites allow you to share everything

so it's been a long time since I last written a blog post

However,I like it like this,because now I can write without worrying what others think of me
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As most of my friends know,I've started having pure breed dogs/pedigree dogs
I'm obsessed with Siberian huskies,Samoyeds & any wolf-like dogs
I have a mutt,which now belongs to my godparents as they need a guard dog

Life with the dogs is not as easy as I thought it would be

I need to walk all of them,feed them,cook for them
Most importantly,love them
but in the end of the day,their little details & habits always comfort me
Reminding me of why I have them in the first place

I will be honest,I secretly rated my dogs
Don't get me wrong,I love all of them very very much
but some of them leave prints in my heart more than the others did

Here is my most loved-Winston,my first siberian
A MKA(kennel club in malaysia) registered,well-bred pet siberian

I've been looking for a siberian for 2 years,none of the huskies 'click' with me
When I saw Winston,I fell in love

winston at his first few days

I knew instantly that "This is THE ONE", I want to have him beside me through my life
It was because of him I started stepping into the world of dog shows

For a whole year,Winston proved himself worthy of my choice
As a siberian,he learnt tricks quickly & easily-from sit to walking on hind legs
He is not picky,and follows me everywhere in the house
We climbed hills,had diet-jogging most evening,leaving foot prints at various restaurants

Sometimes,we share the night together (when he's bathed). Either watching tv or just reading novels
Winston will be beside me,curled up like a husky should,and resting his head on my knees

He shares my happiness,sadness,& taught me a lot of things that humans can't teach
He is my sweetheart,I could not imagine living a life without him around
He is my number 1 :)

Then there's Angel,the Samoyed

My first imported girl.
I'm always in love with white dogs,particularly pure white dogs,I think they are like angels
I chose to import because I don't trust malaysia breeders,and nobody was breeding registered Samoyeds in Malaysia.
Since dogs are supposed to be 'Angels on earth',and Samoyeds' nickname in Chinese is Smilling Angels
I named her Angel.

A name she well-deserved.
She has been an angel to others,she likes every dog,loves kids etc.
She would stop for a kid to pet her,hug her & works well with many aggressive dogs

Unlike Winston,Angel seems to understand things easily on her own
She would go to her crate when called,and follows on leash without much disagreements
Things I go through with Winston for at least 2 weeks,she gets them within a few days

She asks for companionship constantly,she would cuddle beside me when she is allowed outside her crate
Instead of playing crazily,she enjoys being petted more
She sleeps beside me,and wants my hand on her head,which made me love her even more

The different thing about her is that she would ask for my attention,and is not afraid to show me she is jealous
Winston,on the other hand,just secretly stay jealous & bullies his brothers for getting attention from me :P

Stay sweet my Angel ;)

The next dog was Force,who was imported for dog shows

Like Winston,I fell in love instantly with this fluffy monster,so did he :)
Force likes my hugs & rubbing his fur on my legs like a cat
If you ask for a kiss from Force,you will receive a face wash immediately

Force is a very photogenic model to me,his photos are always beautiful
Most importantly,he always makes me feel happy with his smile
Although he is very naughty & acts like a big baby all the time
I still fall for him,and I can't get angry with him

I guess that's why he is so attached to me to a point where: if he doesn't see me for 5 minutes,
he will cry for me when he sees me.

Stay silly & fluffy my big baby,I love you everyday ;)
-credits to WhiteSunday siberian for breeding such a lovely dog

There's a lot more but I have no time to write them all
Maybe next time :)

That one moment

One moment,

enough to feel everything

enough to realize everything

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Ever had those moments where you suddenly realized something?

That you're loved,you were wrong,you were...I don't know,not who you are?

I have few of those moments

Bear with me,this is a long post

I enjoy reading novels,usually Harry Potter during my free time

That one day,I woke up and stared at my notes on the wall

Notes with everything I've experienced

I stared for at least 1 hour

I just couldn't do anything on that day

I need a break

I know,at that moment,I was tired

I have been trying to please people who doesn't know how to appreciate me for the past few months

and I'm exhausted

The second time this happened was few weeks ago

My key-ring went missing

I kept it by my side for 2+ years

It was impossible for me to misplace it

But it went missing

I should've known

it was time to let go

Probably someone pick it up

...or it just don't wanna be found

The last time this happened was on 7th of October this year

The time I just decided to stay isolated

But after overhearing what I'm not supposed to hear

I know I was never alone

There are always ways and chances for someone to be loved

  or to love someone

no matter if they deserve your love,take the chances

Either learn a lesson or gain a bonus in life

Staying still is safe,but it doesn't get you anywhere further

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People don't change for no reason

1st

Sometimes I don't like to please people just for the sake of being in the circle

In fact,I feel uneasy around people I can't cope with

Some people talks a lot behind others,but they're still friends with the people they hate

I don't question that

but I don't kiss people's asses and take shit from them

Just because I can't be lonely

I didn't change,I just stop pleasing people I dislike

2nd

I used to carry this small little key-ring with me

It was broken at its first year

But I love it so much that I still put it in my pockets,purse or bag

I felt so safe when I brought it along

Like it was a part of me and will always be

I always thought I would never misplace it

but it happened.

Things change in life,they come and go for their own reasons

They may come back or not at all

you either wait for it or just move on with your life

In my case,I just have to let go of it

Maybe this way I will be happier

Maybe he is happier now too.

3rd

I like the phrase 'one in a million'

You see,some people think materialize things can be replaced easily

Some people think you can just get new friends whenever you lost your old ones

Not really

I met my best friend,got my own photo frame,video

They are all the one in a million things to me

Different people,places and things have different meanings to people

Everyone have their own unique taste or feelings towards someone or something

I've always thought my chances of meeting someone who's one in a million is already gone

I lost someone who took me for who I really am years ago

I regretted and never met that kind of person again

But then things changed

I am so glad that I have the chance of meeting 2 of these people in the crowd

Life's constantly changing,don't try to feel secure with not changing at all

After all,you only live once *YOLO! lol*

至:我的那些年

虽然很落后了,但我终于看了'那些年,我们一起追的女孩'这部电影

也因为这部电影,让我想把已经生锈的华语拿出来献丑

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我不知道你是我的柯景腾还是沈佳宜
我只能说你是我的那些年

2年
说多不多,说少不少

这2年不管面对着什么问题时,总会觉得"你在身边的话,有多好"

但我相信你不想听到我这么说,所以你给我的一字一句我都牢牢地记在心里

成长是永远的路途
有些人,到了死胡同就不会再转出来,干脆在那里住下来
有些人,怎么转也转错路,错过很多美好的事物

而我,不断地徘徊在那个分叉路口

走不下去,也选择不了

一直到今年年中
遇到了一个让我明白我到底要什么的人

虽然到最后我们不得不为了一些难理解的原因分道扬镳

朋友问我: "他有怎样吗? 你又怎样了? "
我能答的只有: "我不知道他怎么了,但我过得很好。"

朋友们不相信我没事,也难怪的

这我才明白当时你的感受
或许在这时经历所谓的低潮期

会特别花时间去想了很多很多的东西

才知道,我真的有好好的珍惜过他
而当你知道没结果的时候,就该放手
把伤害减到最低

也不愿意为了一时的不甘心,勉强地把两个人的未来绑在一起

而且
被你喜欢过,让我觉得其他人都没那么喜欢我 *摘自九把刀*

当个成熟的人很不容易
所以我很佩服你能包容以前那个幼稚的我

你说你今年毕业
我也不能肯定自己会不会去祝福你

但我想在这里先好好地告诉你:

" 人生的路真的很长很远,谢谢你曾出现在路途中给我带了一段路。也谢谢你的旅程中
有过我的存在。就算再也不能听说你的故事,我希望你以后有什么困难都能走过去,面对
什么挫折也能站起来。

虽然陪在你身边的不会是我,但你的好总会被发现,在你遇到那个人的时候就请记得
我给你的祝福。愿你能永远幸福。"

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我也不再一个人面对选择和挫折

即使这个世界怎么变,始终有些人不会变
也总有人会疼惜自己

曾几何时,我从放不下你的班级毕业了
即使不能回到过去,也拥有能翻阅的回忆

谢谢你让我明白幸福是什么

谢谢你,我的那些年
我们是永远的朋友