随笔 20.5.2011

我知道过了一段日子,不过真的没有什么时间上来更新

偶尔,只是偶尔
我回想起去年的20.5真的是我最喜欢的一天

5月20日

夹杂着我对一个人的感情

像迷宫一般,解不开,也没有去解

我相信,一段爱情小说,最完美的结局,就是没有结局

我不知道其他人会怎么想
但是我清楚,你会明白我想说的是什么

与其我拼命的想把这段记忆从脑海里删除,
还不如顺其自然,所以我变了

我确实变了,我说不出口,但本身感觉到

我不再为一点小事生气关心自己的人
我不再去在乎时间有多少

还有一点是,你会不相信吧
我活得,比以前忙

其实我真的明白以前你的难处,这对你会有点不可思议

我不介意,不介意没有时间

我很喜欢这种感觉,可能明知道距离远了心还是在一起
比一切还要幸福

不过解说这一切,都比不上我对你说 '我变了' 这般容易 ;)

至于上几个月我对你说的话
我不会收回,那很真实,从我心里说出来的

你回答与否,不是我的事
你要回复了,自然会复的

但是,那一天,不管哪一天
有难了,伤心了,只要我能帮忙了

我会尽量,尽量赶在你崩溃前到达

是的,'一定会帮你' 这种话我说不出

衷心的希望你的笑,是真的笑

愿你一切安好,健康

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后记

这个文章被存在档案里有超过20天了

其实我很犹豫到底需不需要写这篇东西

在意认识我的人怎么看

然后好友告诉我,发自内心的东西,不会不值得写出来
更何况,我的生活,何时轮到别人来管了

然后我把这个后记缓缓补上

*P.S
如果你真的有看

永远记得,是有这么一个人希望你开心

在你觉得伤心无助时,愿这祝福能给你带来至少一点的安慰


*我不是你的谁,但比任何人都愿意看到你开心

With luck,moving forward

-SunnySideMe

WTH?! Shallow!

Secondary school is a place for you to make great friends,
A place for you to study,

But you would wonder so much sometimes,either friends or studies

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So I chat with Kelsey about some weakness on person

Not everyone is perfect,ya you know that,moving on

About friends,I do wonder,and I like my class better,now & always.
There's someone I mention earlier,
Heck ya! A shallow person,wth are you?
You're really immature,just like your uncle & brother say so.

Sometimes I figure,Kelsey was right.
I'm sick of compromising,should have scold you in front of everyone,but I didn't
Ya,I'm a nice person,unlike you,denying others' hard work.

So far,I like my friends,well,not the one I already stop friending :)

Don't get me wrong,I love you guys ;D

Okay,about studies!
"You wanna get A+ right?Just copy la!"
Hell,so when we copy we got the ability to get A+?
WTH is that concept?

I don't deny copying notes somehow helps in studies,but not getting A+.
Sometimes you will find it stupid,
Yes,notes,points & some hard work is required

Nowadays,education is confusing.
Example:we have to have test every month,because American do so?
Awww,that's crap! American get summer & winter break,they get to rest,we don't.
During holidays,we need to prepare for the next exam already!

In addition,Americans usually can choose what course they's probably study in the future & the subjects they REALLY LIKE.

Still,there's successful people in our country,but mostly not here
You know what I mean.

Okay,I'm ranting randomly on people & education
Don't take it personally,just saying ;)

trollin'

Bell

Ahhh....Geez

Okay so I opened tumblr
http://nomnomnom-licious.tumblr.com/
feel free to take a look,because I'm updating tumblr regularly
but I will keep blogger updated too ;D

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It's been a while since I update my blog,well,a lot was going on!

Mae Yee & her family leave this morning,going back to England
I will miss you :)

Mid-year exam is coming soon,I can't ask for help from other school since they are having the exam at the same dates,Shirley knows that!
Stress stress stress!

I just had a Math's course today,and it was boring,as usual.
Kenny can't understand triangle,gosh I was picking up my little knife!
You should really study,Kenny,I hope you do fine in exams :D

Someone can't just grow up,being immature was the biggest thing I regret in my whole life
Hope that someone will figures,geez...kinda awkward,how old should a person be mature?
I mean,you're bloody 17!
 Somewhere in the pea brain of yours,lives wisdom.Try your best to access him

Mika is going to turn 17 officially soon!!!OMG May is such a busy month!
In case I forgot,I will wish you here first:
Happy Birthday!!! xD

Also I had my mom promising me to buy me a mac book,and she said I would do fine being out there,like I'm leaving! There's still 2 years!
Anyway I cherish you as you're such a great mom

Talking about friends,Kelsey & my classmates are the best I could have,or Wendy :D
Ya,I'm not judgemental,but having peple keep on saying rude words in front of you as your friend,kinda make us uncomfortable.
If you wanna use it,you're going to pay for it #just saying

Anyway,summing up so far,life's great!
Melacca class trip is coming after exam
I'll get my new wardrobe soon
I have new friends aka Shirley & others
My friends are all fine!

I love you guys! remember that ;D

Life's so great!

Ah Bell

I remember :)

那天骑着单车,
拿起电话,打起熟悉的字眼
回头,
原来没有忘记,只是想不起

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相当悠闲的一天,星期四 :D

最近洗了照片,蛮喜欢拿着照片的感觉
现在都上传在面子书,还是少了点什么,觉得一张张的照片比较有感觉吧 :)

我记得,你给我买巧克力,
然后傻傻的说,没伤心事不准吃.
我知道,你不想我伤心,即使有也能吃巧克力

我记得,你在半夜给我打电话
担心我有什么心事,没有人会聆听
我一直都很喜欢你,可能我没有说,但你才是我的好朋友

我记得,你喜欢上她
却整天对我抱怨她的不好,
其实,我不是什么很好的女朋友,但是我会当一个对你很好的朋友

我记得,那年你想拉我的手
却在开口前被我制止,
对不起没对你说,你却仍然对我这么好

我记得,那次你在我面前哭
我不了解,一点都不.
我只想陪你一起哭,原来我那么容易被你影响

我记得,我笨得想为你们付出一切时间,
如果那叫天真,我还是宁愿现实一点
值不值得的事情,不是由你来决定,是我的决定

就像我上次说的,照片能记录回忆
但如果有心,根本不需要照片,因为那个情景一直都在心里 :)

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我想感谢
半夜打电话给我的雯
当我是知心朋友的冰
和我一样爱化妆的MIKA
给我美好记忆的你们

下辈子,不要忘了来找我 :')

*世界末日那天,咱们一起死好不好? xD

When you smile,I smile too :)

Clairabell

This is a post.About craps on my mind

Life is never a ice-cream with all topping on
So you can stop eating those xD

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okay,so I was a little bored on web I decided to update my blog AGAIN :D
Things changed,please don't ever consider I was a obedient or good student.

I'm always this way,
I don't enjoy meeting that keeps going on & on with the same old boring topic
If you were so worried about it,go solve it.

I don't like to see your face,please don't ever ask me why don't I look straight into you
You disgust me,that's the end of the discussion.

I don't quite like the idea of you calling my name,so what?
You have polluted my name,I hate that.

I don't think you can stop people from talking about you in internet,it's not case sensitive
You don't own the internet,there was never a rule that said we can't do so.

I like the fact that you have a tiny brain yet a big body shape,but I never liked you
You're just a clown in my school life,nothing you said could ever affect me.

I'm going to the damn camp,but guess what,I can bath in my home & eat actual food
I don't mind if I can't be closer with other people,I don't want to anyway.

I don't like you,don't try to sneak in to my best friend list,I had kick you out of it
You never care,why bother to care now? I don't give a damn about you.

I don't like to stand there like a puppet & so I have ADHD,I don't wanna cure it
I know you're boring & all that, don't force me to be like you,you're a DEAD FISH.

I don't mind looking at ugly things but you were too much!
Yes,I've always been like this,look at your 'dreamy' eyes,you can scare people at night.

What's with your mind? So you think you could control people? Ya Don't!
Well,unless you're holding a gun,but that would be impossible.

I know you were concern about me,but I DON'T need you to do that,
I don't care how many years,you WERE my friend,you leave me when I needed help,I don't mind,but don't expect I would ever help you,I won't care even if you want to suicide.

I don't mind if you say bad things about me,I can't ask everyone to like me,
You & your 'come on' all that,I hate it,yet I felt sorry for you as you were a low-educated creature,you made me felt happy about myself.

Let me be harsh on you,I wonder why you can stand looking into the mirror everyday you wake up? Your breathe stink like shit,you were not very nice of a person & you never will be.You have no real friends unless you beg them to be.I despise you.I've never try to talk about your private stuff but you make me did so,OPPS ?

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I've done with my complaining :D

Now,I would like to thanks some people for hearing me out

Thanks ZQ for listening to me,saying all this crap
Thanks to Kent who comfort me about this
Thanks to my friends in 12 who makes me feel better of myself :D

I'm not vulnerable

carrot