Tuesday, 5 December 2017

声音

好多夜里

睡不着, 累的慌

伴随心跳, 呼吸困难

*

若声音能让人安心

那人们应该不想听

我的喘息

吸进, 呼出

声音清晰

什么无声的事物

把我压得如此难过

吸进, 呼出

痛彻心扉

漫长的夜里

是否有人听见

我扭曲的呼吸

只是求救的声音?

*

也许让人太懂事
是把人推向悬崖的

几双手。

Monday, 4 December 2017

念你

若能解释一切,那便没有烦恼
但若一切能被解释,那很无聊。

*

第一次,并不喜欢你

第二次,我只看着他

第三次,你却不刺眼

第n次,在我眼里,你只应天上有。

后来你看着我,跌跌撞撞地成长

我用我知道的方式
给你传达我的意思

而你没装好接收器
只给我基本的表示

那后来的见面
连话都说的很含糊

每一次错误
我都撒落着珍珠
希望能让一切停止

却不明白为什么
这在你眼里再也不可贵

即使我累得快跨
即使我伤得很深
即使我也有愿望
即使我也是女生

即使我多么爱你

你都好像海伦凯勒

再后来的见面
我再也不敢挥霍眼泪

觉得你的明白,
比起我,还难能可贵

浑浑噩噩
陪你慢慢地把山堆起来
陪你慢慢地让身材走样
陪你慢慢地把时间遗忘

陪你慢慢地把初衷丢下

我却再也不能跟上

好想你正眼看着我
像当初你所说一样
在你眼里
难道我不是孩子一样

只想要被满足愿望
只想要被关心拥抱
只想要被衷心感谢

你忘了我,不过如此

我能有多坚强
可以有多心伤
期待能有多长

我疼你,所以愿意把自己弄脏
我心疼,所以宁愿把朋友放凉
我没钱,所以愿意把肚子饿坏

我犯贱,所以可以不顾一切

只盼望在你身边

却忘了
你也只是还在成长

其实我的成熟, 不过如此而已

*

我只想听见
那辆老爷车的引擎声
把我喜欢的歌都盖过
冷到不行的隔壁驾座
看着你模仿我的歌手

即使什么都没有
我们窝心的时光

Wednesday, 26 October 2016

Happy Birthday

Happy birthday

Once my prince

Then first kiss

My pretty,happy dream

Happy Birthday

Took my heart

Left me shattered

Build me up

Brought me down

Happy birthday

My gentle guide

The English noob

Crazy game guy

Happy Birthday

The defining colour

My real strength

My first love

Happy Belated Birthday

My dear past =]

Thursday, 17 December 2015

Numb

When all hell break lose
All I can feel was
Nothing at all
Maybe I am heartless
or because
I was a dead soul

Long long ago.

*

Tragedy strikes,everywhere,anytime
Sometimes small,sometimes big
I wished for it to never be too horrible
because it could be unbearable

Nothing moves me
Nothing shakes me
for a good 16 years

Then you came in to my little world
Taught me how to love
Took me out for food
Tell me all the words
I want to hear
As long as you are here

Loved me like
I was the only one left on earth

Loved me like
You were having the last day of your life

Full of wonder,full of joy

Then it disappeared
You were gone one day

How do I react
I will never understand
What to do
When your whole world is gone?

I felt lost
like a fish having its ocean drained
like a piano losing all the black keys
like the day without the night

...like an empty shell without a soul but hollow echo of the memories you left

There are worst tragedies
Reasons to live better
People who worth all the wait

but this tragedy was silent
There was no reasons
and no more others
who could ever tell me what is love
the way you did,for the first time

What can be worst than having your heart broken
by the same person who taught you
That you have a heart?

*

I guess we were not the only ones left on earth

Tuesday, 23 June 2015

Certainly.

Have you heard of giving?

They told me giving is great
Giving is good

It will never hurt you.

Oh, but how wrong they were.

It hurts, like a cut to a fresh wound.

I don't have money
I don't have fame

I gave attention
and my limited time

It's all I have.

I've talked to you
I've laughed with you
I've spent time being idiots with you.

Sometimes you're busy
Sometimes you're sad
Then sometimes you're just, not you

We all have those days
So I've never really took offense

Then you just disappeared.

I tried again
"There must be something wrong"
I thought,
"You will never treat me like this"
I reassured myself.

Oh but I was wrong.

I've always thought of all your feelings
with every step I take

Will you be hurt?
Are you not ready?
Will you consider?
Do you like this?
Will you like this song?

Are you okay?

I noticed every time
When you wished to escape the crowd
When you didn't like the plan
When you couldn't say no

When you are sad.
Even thou you have never really showed it.

It seems that I am not worth those thoughts.

I am not tired of giving
but how much you see that I am giving

I didn't stop, I am not afraid
It felt as if I've had a paper cut

Something so harmless and pure
yet it can leave me bleeding in pain.

Oh I can never stop

because at the end of the day
If you ever ask me for some time
I know my answer will be

"Certainly"