还有什么？

吊儿郎当
有天分不努力
不爱吃东西
喜欢人也不说出口的时代

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如果时间倒流9年，我只是刚选主修科系的屁孩

为什么是9年？

可能那年经历的事情难以忘怀

回想起来，会萌生“好想回去，做出不同选择”的自己

让我由衷地厌恶

但在我不断细数过去的错误时，才发现我并没有错

只是现在的我，比以前更胆小了

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爱着那个

讨厌学长学姐就不屈服的自己

放下成绩高低的自己

不把社会刻板印象放眼里的自己

即使被人说再多也不会改变想法

善于倾听别人烦恼

沉迷哈利波特

那个

不怕生
爱摄影
爱画画
敢爱敢恨
直话直说
相信梦想

的自己

我爱着你，真希望我依然是你

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屈指一数，以前说不放弃的事情和人

你保留了多少？

愿过去的挚友安好，仍对我有成见的人见鬼
感恩自己
即使灵魂面目全非，也没傻到认为岁数增长就是长大的现象

嗯，喜欢我就让我知道吧；想讨厌就花你的时间讨厌吧。

讨厌我的人啊
人生很短暂，没时间陪你喧哗
或许你很惊讶，但我并不难过

你只是在我的世界里死去一样

我不给予感情，更不会拜祭你

只愿你一路走好。

声音

好多夜里

睡不着, 累的慌

伴随心跳, 呼吸困难

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若声音能让人安心

那人们应该不想听

我的喘息

吸进, 呼出

声音清晰

什么无声的事物

把我压得如此难过

吸进, 呼出

痛彻心扉

漫长的夜里

是否有人听见

我扭曲的呼吸

只是求救的声音?

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也许让人太懂事
是把人推向悬崖的

几双手。

Happy Birthday

Happy birthday

Once my prince

Then first kiss

My pretty,happy dream

Happy Birthday

Took my heart

Left me shattered

Build me up

Brought me down

Happy birthday

My gentle guide

The English noob

Crazy game guy

Happy Birthday

The defining colour

My real strength

My first love

Happy Belated Birthday

My dear past =]

Numb

When all hell break lose
All I can feel was
Nothing at all
Maybe I am heartless
or because
I was a dead soul

Long long ago.

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Tragedy strikes,everywhere,anytime
Sometimes small,sometimes big
I wished for it to never be too horrible
because it could be unbearable

Nothing moves me
Nothing shakes me
for a good 16 years

Then you came in to my little world
Taught me how to love
Took me out for food
Tell me all the words
I want to hear
As long as you are here

Loved me like
I was the only one left on earth

Loved me like
You were having the last day of your life

Full of wonder,full of joy

Then it disappeared
You were gone one day

How do I react
I will never understand
What to do
When your whole world is gone?

I felt lost
like a fish having its ocean drained
like a piano losing all the black keys
like the day without the night

...like an empty shell without a soul but hollow echo of the memories you left

There are worst tragedies
Reasons to live better
People who worth all the wait

but this tragedy was silent
There was no reasons
and no more others
who could ever tell me what is love
the way you did,for the first time

What can be worst than having your heart broken
by the same person who taught you
That you have a heart?

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I guess we were not the only ones left on earth

Certainly.

Have you heard of giving?

They told me giving is great
Giving is good

It will never hurt you.

Oh, but how wrong they were.

It hurts, like a cut to a fresh wound.

I don't have money
I don't have fame

I gave attention
and my limited time

It's all I have.

I've talked to you
I've laughed with you
I've spent time being idiots with you.

Sometimes you're busy
Sometimes you're sad
Then sometimes you're just, not you

We all have those days
So I've never really took offense

Then you just disappeared.

I tried again
"There must be something wrong"
I thought,
"You will never treat me like this"
I reassured myself.

Oh but I was wrong.

I've always thought of all your feelings
with every step I take

Will you be hurt?
Are you not ready?
Will you consider?
Do you like this?
Will you like this song?

Are you okay?

I noticed every time
When you wished to escape the crowd
When you didn't like the plan
When you couldn't say no

When you are sad.
Even thou you have never really showed it.

It seems that I am not worth those thoughts.

I am not tired of giving
but how much you see that I am giving

I didn't stop, I am not afraid
It felt as if I've had a paper cut

Something so harmless and pure
yet it can leave me bleeding in pain.

Oh I can never stop

because at the end of the day
If you ever ask me for some time
I know my answer will be

"Certainly"